my life

2009-03-23T14:44:00.002+08:00

back..

its getting real dusty here.. guess i had to do a little area cleaning.. life's been great since ord.. haha.. and like finally started work again le.. money's been flowing out like nobody's business cauz of driving and my relentless spending here and there..

been real busy working and gaming as well.. got my lappy last week and great having the privacy of using the com in my own room liao le.. haha.. working again at sakae.. at lot 1.. like finally after getting real pissed for waiting for nearly 3 to 4 weeks.. might be transferring over to westmall again..

nothing much to blog about.. need to settle some important things here and there.. guess will drop by here once in a while ba.. stop here ba.. till thens..

2009-02-12T20:13:00.004+08:00

ORD LO!!!

10th february 2007.. i stepped into the gates of tekong.. handed my pink ic to some stupid fellow at the table and poof, its gone.. 1 yr 10 months later.. 6th february 2009, i finally saw my pink ic again and i finally ORD-ed.. ok i got my ic early and my ord is actually the 9th february..

its kinda like a magical journey to mi as i spent nearly 2 yrs of my precious life in army which holds the golden moment of my transition from a teenager to young adult.. i wun say that the time i spent is utmost unpleasant but i guess was mostly painful if u were like in the same unit as i was..

tekong life was easy.. raven coy is one of the slackest company ever in the SAF.. and i would alwaes rmb throwing a blind grenade and got scolded as i was the second last man in the company.. i guess the most memorable moment was the 24km route march which i ever thought i would be able to complete.. i rmb the times walking deep into the unknown in tekong.. grazing at the sky littered with shimmering stars which literally took my breath away.. and reaching the parade square with ah boon yong qing they all.. unbelieveable.. and all the emo little chats with edmund and allan looking out that mainland singapore as the sun sets and disappears quietly into the horizon.. as we POP-ed i guess we each carried a part of everyone in us as we moved on in life..

after block leave i got posted into 30SCE alpha company.. more simply posted to 18th level hell.. drawn on the sentry post at the gate.. i started my life as a field engineer in june 2007 and we dragged our duffel bags in front of our company block and got scolded for dragging.. realli mind those idiots who scolded us that the duffel bags are meant to be dragged as there are wheels fixed..

life there was realli hell.. treated as if we weren't a kind of lifeform in this universe.. tekan like crazy everyday in training outside training.. i guess everyone who been thru this journey with mi will vividly rmb the 500BX one single morning.. (its supposed to be 5BX) astham attacks, dizziness and nauseous was common then.. CEC was one of the most painful times for everyone in my platoon i suppose.. and there comes FPC where i became a PNR 6.. and with great power (as in being fat or more stoutly) comes with great responsibility.. i carried a jerry can and a saw.. crazy weight.. PIT where all the exercises come into play.. landmine warfare CFF firestorm gemini cub bear .. everything then was never ending and i tried to escape from everything with my long status and chao keng mentality.. and i bid farewell to 2007 and welcomed 2008..

2008 started as our company took on standby duties and the siren was merciless to mi.. i guess i hold the record in alpha.. total no of times the siren rang minus 1 is the no of times i ran down the parade square within 7 minutes.. i had been on handcuffs when the siren rang and sometimes not even dressed properly with my ungarments and i ran down and down..

ard mrch we were in seletar camp learning construction skills.. i rmb fixing up a ciruit box all by myself and this was realli something meaningful and useful in life that i learnt.. can fix some of the things at home when they are damaged.. but halfway thru the course our dear friend mas ran away from the whitney detention centre and as a good friend of the police force we were activated to help.. very diffcult period where we had little rest and needed to work shifts under the scorching and merciless sun as well as bear the cold lonely nights.. it ended in a month or so time and we went back to seletar and finished our platoon's modular kit..

this was the time i somehow come to an understanding with myself and decided to cheong with my platoon.. my strength may seem meagre but i guess it still makes a difference.. at least there's someone in the section to carry the jerry can.. i guess the addition of 3SG going 2SG pang lek ( he hasn't ord yet though.. LOL..) somehow made the difference.. there's someone there to be advance party with mi and we suffered together.. and looking at how jeffrey work somehow changed my mind not to chao keng anymore..

more standby duties came by and as well as exercises preparing us for our etap in thailand.. firestorm, gemini, cub and bear 2 were the main milestones before we embarked on our journey to thailand in late august 2008.. cresendo in thailand would be the most memorable and unforgettable experience in my army life.. the unforgiving weather in thailand was a great challenge.. temperatures could be as high as 40 degrees and u have to push on.. i will alwaes rmb the breathtaking view ard thailand doing deerhunter and painfully digging shellscrapes thru the night.. thanks to 3SG (NS) daniel tan who spammed mi continually and i dug 3 in the final exerise.. and conquering eagle hill not once but twice in thailand.. the marvellous nightsky with the frequent shooting stars will be an image imprinted deep in my mind.. and not long we are finished with our evaluation and everything we have worked for for the time in 30SCE..

some training here and there and also APB last month concluded my time in army.. and i got my ord not long back.. as i pen down things here i reminicise the bits and pieces of my army life.. its tough yet memorable.. and many things i ever thought i achieve i done it.. i got my IPPT GOLD in my second yr and somewhat passed SOC with some ease..

i wouldn't say this journey is smooth sailing without arguments here and there.. politics are alwaes there and it works on the mind of ppl.. i recalled a time where i quarrelled with kuan how cauz i changed group with him and he had to be with chao kun.. but nevertheless things wouldn't be as fun without these childish arguments..

wat i will alwaes miss will be the silly little things done in bunk.. all those stupid arguments and all those birthday punks every month during celebrations.. all those late night talks and chitchats with cheng wei jeffrey leslie and the rest and also interesting memories that will be deeply etched in mi.. and making jie liang the receding hairline in the platoon.. there will alwaes be differences as everyone is unique.. i guess as everyone's army life comes to an end its time to set aside these differences and realli hold on this special bond no everyone have in their life.. like wat 3SG (haven ORD) Aloysius mentioned its time to forget the hatred and build on the friendship we all have.. no matter wat quarrels i guess should be forgotten as we ORD.. the end here marks a new beginning and a new journey ahead of us..

as everyone embarks on their new journey i guess its onli right to pay tribute to everyone who has made my army life fun and interesting.. to all the commanders in platoon 1 with special thanks to plong.. and to all my platoon and section mates who had been an integral part of my 1 yr 10 months in army.. thank all for making the difference..

i hereby wish everyone best wishes for their future endeavours and good luck in everything each and everyone do in future.. 10 yrs, 20 yrs down the road, i will alwaes rmb the pain the joy and the smiles i had in army and in platoon 1.. all the best!! (:

2009-01-30T10:06:00.002+08:00

CNY

i guess i have been abandoning this blog for a very long time.. time to do a little spring cleaning here since its chinese new yr.. cny has always been the time of the year everyone gets time off to celebrate this special occasion..

chinese new yr hasn't been something spectacular this yr.. not much of bai nian except for going over to my aunt's place and maternal grandmother's place.. reunion steamboat at my aunt's place and it more or less concludes my chinese new yr..

been jogging daily recently.. haha.. guess its one of the big achievement and something i got right this new yr.. haha.. time to keep myself healthy as well.. a lot of things to change this new yr as well.. guess i wun name it here though..

5 more work days to ord lo.. mixed feeling but i guess its time to move on and get myself a job.. update till here ba.. here wishing everyone who sees this post a very happy chinese new yr and best wishes for the yr ahead! till thens..

2009-01-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

happy 2009!!

its finally 2009 le.. the magical yr for most of us in ns.. haha.. i'm going to ord in another month plus time!!

2008 has passed in a blink of an eye.. quite a interesting yr but 2009 is another new yr to embark onto new journey and more memories to be forged.. new resolutions to achieve and dreams to fulfil..

lets us hope 2009 will be a great yr ahead and i wish all my frends all the best in the yr ahead and may good luck in everything!! have fun and take care!! happy new yr once again!! (:

2008-12-29T15:33:00.018+08:00

happy birthday to ME!

finally turned 20 on this day.. haha.. nothing special just that i am now starting with 2 and i am getting older.. haha.. was a great week for the christmas week.. spent a wonderful week in KL with meng fei..

stayed at his auntie's house for the week and it was like chinese new yr for the kids.. haha.. gorged the kids with food and stuffs.. travel to lots of places had lots of fun.. ate lots of exotic stuffs and non stop for the 5 days.. LOL.. sinful..

cheesy wedges that cannot be found in singapore's KFC.. yum..

bah kut teh on the first day we were there..

kenny rogers at midvalley plaza on the second day.. uber cheap..

beautiful afternoon in the city..

meng fei n mi..

mrt ticket.. nostalgia yeah?

nice view..

pasar malam at sri petaling after visiting ing how..

shopping in town at bukit bintang on christmas eve.. town map..

shopping malls..

uber nice chicken rice.. lunch for christmas..

omg fried kway tiao.. haha..

the very last of kampong culture..

childhood memories..

last day of shopping at berjaya times square before home sweet home.. LOL..

great holidays in KL for the 5 days there.. haha.. good break and rest after 1 yr plus of hard work in army.. haha.. had fun good company and great food.. haha.. totally refreshed after the holiday.. and soon i'll be getting back my pink asset lo..

celebrated xun kai's belated birthday with him yesterday also at new york new york at lot 1.. a simple dinner.. nonetheless grateful to have time off to treat him to one.. haha..

gonna book in later tonight.. holidays has ended le.. but a new yr is coming ahead.. decisions to make and paths to choose.. resolutions for a better 2009! LOL.. update again lo.. once again happy birthday to ME! till thens..

2008-12-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

block leave!!

been enjoying myself on the block leave.. although i got half day of my leave being "forcefully" taken away from mi on tuesday.. nvm.. life's been great after writing 291208 on the book in book out book.. shopping almost everyday and going for dinner and stuffs..

swimming on wednesday with xiao ming.. took a walk ard the new jp.. haha.. its getting bigger and better.. the whole array of restaurants at the basement is like omgsh.. but 4 yrs in jurong is kinda boring though.. but its nice still cauz i like finally got a pair of shoes there.. had dinner at ichiban also.. haha.. jap food!

supper on thursday at timah with hong rui.. eat at a hong kong cafe.. thick toast char siew horfun.. damn nice.. extremely sinful.. getting fat already... now even worse.. lol.. but dun care.. food comes first.. played pool after so long also.. haha..

went shopping with xiao ming yesterday and finally got my pair of pants at FOX after much futile efforts of searching last weekend.. and went change money and cycle today.. haha..

my long awaited KL trip is juz in 2 days time.. seriously cannot wait sia.. haha.. so many things to buy and so many things i wanna eat there.. LOL.. can't wait.. update after i'm back ba.. haha.. till thens..

2008-12-14T20:45:00.003+08:00

holidays!

block leave's finally coming.. not that soon yet though.. provided i can get mc for friday's acct grading.. its all on tml already.. dun wanna injure my neck somemore le.. hopefully the MO would be kind tml..

went shopping for the past few days.. futile effort in town wasn't able to get anything on thursday.. couldn't get a polo t today in imm also.. zZz.. wanna buy shoe also dun have the design i like.. diaos.. guess my shopping list for KL is getting longer and longer le..

og outing yesterday also.. its a all guys gathering again.. last min alot of ppl couldn't make it again.. but good to see some of the rest after so long though.. gonna plan something again sometime next yr or so..

can't wait for this week to end.. going over to KL on 22nd lo.. like finally.. the long break i'm looking forward to in this dec.. thats provided my overseas is approved then also.. omg.. everything is so troublesome.. omg.. hais.. can't wait for freedom to come in like 2 months time.. update again ba.. till thens..

2008-11-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

december!!!!

lets say a big hello to december in like a couple of hours time.. woots.. all my block leave and my offs are like finally coming.. and i'm closer and closer to the big day le.. its a no wonder that december is a month of celebrating..

forgetting everything in army can finally go on a holiday in december le.. looking forward to the KL trip in mid dec.. can go shopping like crazy and enjoy myself fully.. planning my og gathering also.. hopefully can get everything together soon..

caught a movie today with xiao ming.. 海角七号.. was a great movie.. it will be nice if u can understand hokkien though.. but the story was subtle and not too bad.. no wonder it was nominated for lots of awards.. highly recommended..

went sushi tei for lunch cum tea break.. not too bad.. wasn't that expensive as i thought also.. haha.. but finally got the time to catch up with him after his long period of mugging for his exams and stuffs.. haha.. can't wait for the KL trip..

shall end here ba.. gonna be a short week in camp this week.. getting out my wisdom tooth on tuesday.. kinda scary also.. i hate dentist.. hopefully everything will be fine.. update again.. till thens..

2008-11-11T21:15:00.007+08:00

platoon 1 chalet..

wasn't too bad afterall had good food great fun.. celebrated the birthdays for the november babies hao tan sinda jeffrey and eric.. as well as the platoon's achievement during exercise daring cobra 2008.. shall let the pictures do the talking..

giantic chocolate cheese cake..

the november babies.. eric jeffrey sinda and hao tan..

group photo..

happy faces..

all the other photos on my facebook.. physio tml and final theory test on tuesday.. hopefully can pass ba.. wanna get my licence before school starts next yr.. LOL.. update again ba.. feeling sick.. till thens..

2008-11-08T22:27:00.002+08:00

3 more months!!!

yup i'm counting down already.. haha.. finally everything is nearing to an end liao le.. closer and closer to the moment liao.. wahaha.. not much of anything le.. i realli wonder why there is this coporate which allows ppl to stay to do nothing except some cleaning before they leave their work place and also give allowance when they clear their off days and annual leave.. cannot understand..

i'm like practically not going back in december le.. gonna have my long awaited annual leave and clearing of my off days.. somehow gotten back those off days i deserve.. budden hoping to get a couple of more days for next month..

apparently someone decided to randomly throw off days and almost onli gave mi 4 days when i worked hard to get 6 days while others can get at least 8 doing about the same stuffs.. lucky for mi and cheng wei we have theory test so getting another 2 days.. lucky.. need to fight for another 2 more ba.. LOL.. one for my bdae.. haha..

okay.. enough of grumbles and tumbles for stupid and unimportant things le.. wahaha.. but seriously time to remedy the problems happening to my body.. can't see an ortho for my knee anymore.. transferred to a spine specialist now le.. hopefully my neck can recover soon.. hopefully the MRI i doing end of this month will be fine.. nothing bad in my neck.. sian.. i got like crazy number of medical appts.. no wonder someone hates mi.. LOL..

its good to book out all the time but its seriously irritating that nothing is improving.. the omni-cure is 3 magical alphabets i guess.. i could have already spent a bomb if i doing all the consultations and stuffs outside.. taking out of wisdom tooth easily costs $800 big bucks for 4 of them.. crazy..

i'm still grumbling though.. LOL.. slowly turning into an old hag doing nothing except complaining.. haha.. but kinda glad this week was a rather fruitful week.. kinda decided wat i wanted for the time to come le.. at least a goal in mind and the things i wanna do.. kinda relieved yet excited for the life to come.. the things that i will be working towards..

k la.. think going off le.. helping out ah pok for the platoon chalet tml.. preparing the realli delicious food on monday.. can't wait to eat the food prepared by pok.. haha.. damn nice.. dunno how everything will turn out though.. hopefully things will be fun.. update again ba.. till thens..

2008-10-25T21:13:00.002+08:00

empty..

i'm seriously like abandoning this blog.. nothing much amazing happened this few eventful weeks.. kinda paradoxical.. still stuck in my disgusting camp waiting to be free.. argh..

its especially boring when u have realli nothing to do in camp but to wake up early in the morning for breakfast, have a run, go back to sleep, wake up for lunch, take a afternoon nap and have dinner again.. good thing is i'm booking out almost weekly for physio and medical appt..

human beings that is.. we complain when we have too much work to do.. i complain when i have to go outfield cheong sua and do lots of idiotic stuffs.. yet when i have absolutely nothing to do, i complain that life's boring.. dunno how to explain this feeling though.. perhaps the pre-ORD syndrome ba.. 3 more months plus to be freed of this mundane life.. or izzit juz the beginning?

at least the past week was fine.. had unit anniversary celebrations on thurs and friday and get to book out on thursday after so "exciting" games and went to wild wild wet on friday.. wild wild wet was alright.. one of the rides was exhilarating.. kinda free fall from dunno how high.. LOL..

that some what concludes this realli post for the sake of post de boring post.. LOL.. very long since i last went shopping.. i want new clothes new berms!! my sis is going taiwan soon.. hopefully can get some berms for mi.. LOL.. i want a holiday!!

should stop this from going on le.. gonna have block leave till wed.. going back to school on wed.. hopefully can see some of the teachers i have not seen for a long time le.. LOL.. update again ba.. till thens..

2008-10-12T17:20:00.002+08:00

crossroad..

here i am.. right in the middle.. no turning back.. but yet shrouded in uncertainties.. which path to take, wat choice to make.. not lost.. but i dun noe where i should go.. 4 months seem so long.. yet it will disappear a a blink of an eye.. regrets are killing mi.. draining mi each and everyday.. now its the time.. everything lies in my hands.. its time to decide..

2008-10-01T19:15:00.003+08:00

updates..

can't think of a title to put it up there.. more or less this is the best to descibe this post ba.. LOL.. been realli doing nothing much in camp recently.. except being outfield last week acting as enemy for another company's evaluation.. was almost bored to death.. supposed to do gaurd on friday but asked to go home after we reached camp.. apparently another company is doing.. wat a waste of time.. nvm..

at least the weekend was great.. met up with nat and yun feng for dinner at NYNY.. realli very very long since i last saw nat le.. think everything still the same.. haha.. but was realli happy on sunday to see joel after like a few months.. our busy schedule made it so impossible to meet up.. but great that we did.. haha.. caught up with so many things and meeting him for dinner this friday.. can't wait..

now on excuse.. heavy load, upper limb, RMJ and ACCT.. seems so chao keng la.. i feel so also.. but guess this is the aftermath for cheonging this whole yr.. seriously my neck and my knee is cui already.. went for a light jog this evening and my knee is like giving way already.. the neck aching as usual.. couldn't do ACCT next week.. cannot afford to strain myself anymore..

after all i realli start to wonder if everything is worth it anot.. work to prove to myself.. i guess this is.. but for army, no.. realli realli tired le.. 4 months plus to go before i realli step out the gates of SAF.. seems so near, looks so close.. but can't feel it, can't touch it yet.. the amazing thing is that my physio said the onli way for mi to get better is to ord.. haha.. oh wells.. this is life i guess.. we gain a little, we lose a little..

also gave up running standard chartered this yr le.. parents worried bout my health.. i got a little hypertension.. din want my parents to get worried also.. but more importantly i made the decision cauz of my neck and knee.. i can't train much now.. running has already become a problem.. guess i need to recuperate and hopefully i can next yr..

my basic theory test coming this friday.. haha.. haven realli study anything yet.. haha.. wonder how to get back to studies when i see juz a little more words and i wanna close the book liao.. zzz.. haha.. hopefully i'll pass though.. can get a license soon.. can't wait for book out.. LOL.. (i haven even book in yet..) update again ba.. till thens..

2008-09-22T21:07:00.002+08:00

bookin in..

ok.. realise it has been a realli long time since i last dropped by here.. time to undust my rusty old blog liao.. haha.. life has been fine since i'm back from thailand.. the "lao jiao" aura in camp is making mi not wanting to do anything.. LOL..

realli time to remedy all the problems that army has caused mi.. been doing my physiotherapy for my neck religiously but i guess the onli way that my neck strain will recover is to ord.. sounds wrong but its right.. think my strain wun recover unless i realli stop carry extremely heavy stuffs and stop the training that is causing all the pain..

went for night cycling on friday night organised by meng fei.. very good job done.. settling all the crazy admin things and getting spammed here and there.. haha.. it wasn't that bad.. LOL.. well done xiao ming! LOL..

been going out here and there and nothing much happened recently though.. and doing LOTS of guard duty.. leave kenna eaten also.. hais.. suan le ba.. that day will come.. 9th feb 2009.. i can't wait.. doing duty on friday again.. looking forward to saturday.. finally meeting nat and yun feng for dinner after so so so long.. weekends pls come!! update again.. till thens..

P.S. hey anna if u see this realli my sincere apologies to u that i cannot make it for the bbq coming sat.. mistaken the date and its realli the mistake on my part that i made an empty promise i will come.. realli sorry!!!

5 more months to ord!!!

2008-09-10T12:45:00.002+08:00

back from thailand!

woots.. i'm back from training from thailand.. haha.. 18 days of training had finally come to an end and marks more or less the end of my training in army.. finished with the final evaluation le.. and i cleared my ippt and soc le.. more or less counting down to ord onli le.. LOL..

it was my very trip overseas.. first time on a plane.. i was like a child getting my very first christmas present.. i was thankful i had this chance to train in thailand and to open my eyes to what i was ignorant of in the past..

this trip to thailand was a once in a lifetime experience.. the place we were training at were the northern part of thailand.. ppl there more or less grew crops to support their lives.. houses were make-shift ones.. wooden planks and zinc roofs.. thats a home for them.. back in singapore this is how fortunate we are.. hdb flats everytime.. everyone have proper housing.. a proper shelter.. yet so many ppl take wat we have for granted.. i do too..

this journey taught mi so many things.. to appreciate wat we have.. to be grateful to where we belong.. life there may be tough.. life there may not be as good.. but does it mean the ppl there are not happy? i realli dun have the answer.. what is true happiness? my frend often ask mi.. i finally got the closest answer.. to be satisfied.. to be contented.. to appreciate.. thats where true happiness comes from..

the thing in thailand is that the poor is very poor yet the rich is very rich.. there can be villagers living in such rundown conditions in the north of thailand yet there are ppl living in mansions in bangkok.. this poverty cycle seems to repeat itself.. the rich just gets richer and the poor remains poor.. life seems so unfair.. but how fair life is is how fair u want life to be for u.. its a matter of perception i guess..how u want to define ur life.. life is beautiful because we made it beautiful..

many times in thailand i asked myself wat i was working for.. wat i am working so hard for.. why am i there in the first place.. why i should put in so much effort when others dun bother.. thats the thing i have been asking myself even out of army.. i found an answer.. its for myself.. to prove to myself that i'm capable.. to push myself to the limits and to make myself believe.. i can if i believe.. there are so many beliefs that i have that is strengthened after this 18days.. i'll nv be the same again..

the most important thing i understood was the importance of my family and frends.. the position they had in mi.. i hanged on.. juz to see them again.. they are the purpose of my life.. they are the key to my happiness.. they are the motivation for mi to push on in life.. they are my life..

this thailand trip was a tough one.. but not that tough afterall.. 3 shellscrapes.. climbed a 85 degrees inclined hill twice.. haha.. but all was worthwhile.. and i'm glad everything was over.. experience the rich culture of thailand such as the floating market.. and things there are realli CHEAP.. LOL.. but didn't have much time buying and shopping cauz we spent more time on the bus than shopping.. thailand is seriously too big liao.. LOL.. nonetheless i still had fun..

stoning right now cauz of the jet lag i guess.. been sleeping non stop since i came back.. time to rejuvenate and hope to see some of my frends this week.. update again soon ba.. till thens.. (:

2008-08-21T17:36:00.002+08:00

off to thailand!!!

after months and months of speculation and waiting.. the last and final hurdle is here.. off to thailand lo tonight lo.. my final test.. the final challenge in army.. supposedly.. LOL.. but more or less done with army after i'm finished ba.. wait for ord lo..

be back next month 8th.. will be looking forward till then.. in the meantime to my frends pls dun msg mi or call mi.. if not will waste ur phone bills de.. leave mi a email or something and i will get back to u real soon.. take care lo everyone.. cya guys soon!

till thens.. (:

2008-08-11T00:08:00.004+08:00

OFF!!!

like finally i am getting wat i deserved.. LOL.. a long weekend break and off for us.. 5 days of rest.. the week was good.. nothing much.. 5km competitive run on wed at mac ritchie.. crazy runners there.. damn zai all.. i managed to run 5km in within 20 min though.. 19 plus.. personal best.. outcamp run on friday at batok and thats all for the week..

got to finally register for my driving on friday liao also.. been saying since the year started.. at last registered with cheng wei after the run.. cut queue cauz jeffrey's dad worked there.. LOL.. went swimming on saturday also.. suntan my white belly.. haha..

today caught money not enough 2 with my mum.. was a good movie.. always kinda negative towards recent jack neo's movies.. but realli impressed with this one though.. the neatness of the acting of the old lady.. moved mi alot.. shall not spoil the story for those who haven watch.. recommended though.. preferably bringing ur parents down..

parents are the pillars of our lives.. seek to give their children.. hoping nothing in return.. sometimes even if it means giving up their lives.. watching the movie with my mum beside mi, i guess i had not been a good son i ought to be.. they realli gave mi alot but nv did i ever say i love them before.. if i could onli be half as filial as my dad was to my late grandmother.. time is wat made up our lives.. i guess its up to us to treasure the time we have ba..

yucks.. i'm getting old again.. one of my frend found a picture of mi in jc.. like 2 plus yrs ago.. nostagia sia.. and i barely could believe that the person in the picture is mi.. yucks.. with credits to bin hao..

the time when i could hardly fit into my uniform and i couldn't find any jeans of my size.. i used to ask for size 38 for jeans and the reply i get is: "HUH? sorry my shop dun have such BIG SIZE de jeans.. maybe u can try finding at (insert random shop name).." and the vicious cycle carry on..

think the time when i still dared to step on the weighing machine was like when i was 97kg.. i believed i had achieved "better results" during my A levels period.. haha.. guess i should say a big thank you to army amidst all the disgust.. to make mi like officially 22kg less..

i'm like so random.. LOL.. guess shall stop here ba.. if not i'll be telling old grandmother stories le.. jogging tml evening and attending my physio session for my neck on tuesday.. hopefully it works.. but i guess it will be the same after thailand though.. enough of crap here le.. till thens..

2008-08-03T02:07:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BDAE MENG FEI!!!

i'm done with local exercises! like finally.. haha.. last exercise in thailand and i'm done with my engineer training.. can concentrate on training up my running liao.. maintaining my gold.. heard from xiao ming standard chartered is out for registration le.. dunno whether i should sign up anot.. i ran 16km and i felt like dying.. 42.195km.. is like running to the end point and ppl tell u to restart.. LOL..

great saturday.. celebrated meng fei's belated bdae.. westmall sakae.. ate damn alot till i declared myself unfit for dinner.. the cheese cake i ordered was fantastic.. damn nice.. haha.. credits to my platoon mate's frend.. haha.. saw my ex colleagues there also.. haha.. some pictures of the bdae boy.. er no bdae adult.. cauz is the 21st..

total indulgence..

proud to present the bdae adult.. LOL..

went queensway ikea shopping for xiao ming's hall stuffs also.. bought a lot of this and that.. LOL.. 大包小包.. juz buy onli.. LOL.. went queensway look for running shoes also.. haha.. in the end each of us bought a pair of berms.. LOL.. went back jurong sheng siong and then back to jp shopping.. crazy amount of stuffs we bought.. went xiao ming's home consolidated them and this is wat we got.. MUAHAHA..

dunno how much also liao.. haha.. lost track..

great company, great day.. long time since i realli had fun le.. LOL.. life's good with friends ard.. even better with all the uncertainties in life.. going out tml again i guess.. update again soon.. till thens.. 3 more weeks to thailand.. can't wait.. LOL..

2008-07-27T21:02:00.004+08:00

tired..

seemingly slack week went wrong.. 8km route march 12km route march 16km run.. SOC on thursday.. drained like crazy.. ankle's getting cui.. knee aching like crazy.. wat more exercise from monday to wednesday.. shellscrapes again..

but the consolation is i finally passed my SOC.. can get status liao.. seeing orthopaedic soon.. strained neck.. hai.. my knee and ankle going cui soon also.. got a medal on friday also.. for completing the 16km formation run at east coast..

went town yesterday then met with xun kai.. went marina hoping to see fireworks from the national day thingy but dun have.. but nice though..

i'm kinda disoriented now.. dunno wat i'm typing now also.. juz so not myself right now.. think i better end here ba.. booking in soon liao also.. hope can survive another hell of a exercise ba.. meeting xiao ming on saturday.. at least something to look forward to during the weekends.. update again.. till thens..

2008-07-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

happy bdae anna!

celebrated anna's bdae yesterday at manhattan.. quite fun.. haha.. she was a lucky girl the whole day.. LOL.. wishing her all the best and good luck in everything..

booking in liao.. with a cui ankle and i can't find my ankle guard.. my god.. gonna bandage my ankle b4 running soc this week.. hopefully it works.. hopefully i pass.. if not gg.. no more weekends liao..

gtg.. crazy week ahead after this.. exercise again.. one more month to thailand.. woots.. busy week ahead also.. 我很忙.. LOL.. update again ba.. till thens..

2008-07-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

sprained ankle..

great.. survived BEAR.. but now left with a sprained ankle.. damn.. thanks to the lady who swing her hand all of a sudden, made mi siam her and walked off with a pissed face when i was the one down.. forget it.. blame on my luck.. hope i din hit her also..

BEAR was crazy.. but finally finished.. 3 more exercises to go.. hopefully can survive thru.. haha.. managed to watch 赤壁 yesterday with hong rui also.. with a sprained ankle.. LOL.. not too bad.. nice show.. but i simply love the ending.. 4 words.. ask us to wait for part 2.. cool.. -.-

hope my ankle recover soon ba.. can run soc the following week.. if not RT is waiting for mi.. sian.. update sometime soon ba.. till thens..

2008-07-06T20:32:00.002+08:00

BEAR woohh scary..

sian.. fail my soc.. complacency and unlucky.. haiz.. shouldn't have gave up on the run.. damn stupid.. oh wells.. here i go again.. watched 2 movies though.. hancock and get smart.. not too bad..

EX BEAR this coming week.. gonna be the worse 5 days in my army life i guess.. shellscrapes.. oh my.. cannot imagine yet.. hope i wun fall out ba.. update again soon ba.. have to survive thru this hell of a week.. gtg le.. till thens..

2008-06-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

deployed...

coy deployment ex sux big time.. shellscrapes after shellscrapes and a garang coy 2IC drained the whole company or at least my platoon out.. dammit.. i hate shellscrapes..

the biggest consolation was the good bbq on thursday night.. good food.. and we get to book out for off on friday.. shopping with hong rui was eye opening.. LOL.. settled my temptation for jap food at ichiban that day also..

collected my passport on sat and had fun with xiao ming.. biggest present sent to mi from jeffrey that our guard today was cancelled.. woots.. haha.. but jogging with hong rui today made mi realise i'm getting weak le..

another exercise this week also.. hoping for all the best.. no mission fail.. if not gg.. gonna buy a new phone also.. realise my phone is going without a handset for a long time liao.. settling this weekend i guess.. bookin in le.. till thens..

2008-06-15T19:12:00.002+08:00

GOLD~~~

woots.. hectic week.. rewarding one also.. struck gold le.. finally got my ippt gold.. woots.. 9.33 for 2.4km.. finally conquered myself.. $100 more and one more day off.. woots.. nominated for promotion to CPL liao also.. haha.. more money coming... wahaha..

section proficiency test was great.. first time saw my section working together.. everyone putting in the heart and soul into completing the various engineer tasks.. can say our section is considered the best le.. thats wat i was working hard for..

gonna be a crazy week ahead.. deployment exercise.. shellscrapes.. sian.. guard duty on sun somemore.. bo bian.. this is army.. gtg le ba.. update again.. till thens..

2008-06-08T20:53:00.002+08:00

端午节..

today's dumpling festival.. dunno the exact name of the festival.. LOL.. not too bad.. but sinful.. lots of good food at home.. lots of dumpling at home also.. bad for digestion.. ate alot le.. think getting fat.. LOL..

chronicles was good.. for those who thinks its a kids movie and unwilling to watch, tear down that adulthood and watch it.. its a good movie.. nice.. good effects good plot.. but recommended to watch the first one beforehand.. easier to understand..

gonna fight one last time for gold till exercises come.. must do it this week.. soc also.. can go on off.. section proficiency test this week also.. torture.. good life's coming to an end.. no more movies.. zZz.. guard duty also.. here comes the pain.. going off le.. update again.. till thens..

2008-06-01T21:17:00.003+08:00

back to camp..

weekends passed so quickly as usual.. going back camp later le.. nothing much for the week.. closer and closer to running 9.44 liao.. 9.57 now.. 13 more seconds.. must cheong hard.. been watching movie in camp this whole week.. stay alive, chronicles of narnia 1 and rush hour 3.. haha.. gonna have another this week i guess.. LOL..

went chevrons sing with xiao ming kieng tiong and xiao ming's frend on friday also.. kenna smoked by the person when i booked.. sian.. paid more.. haiz.. yesterday went bank to set up a MySavings account.. finally got a plan in place liao.. still considering another method to help myself save also.. also went jogging in the evening yesterday..

today rotted at home.. went cycling in the evening.. not too bad.. from home to jurong jj there.. now waiting to book in soon.. a lot of movies coming up recently.. wanna watch chronicles prince caspian this week.. cauz watched the first one le.. haha.. maybe during nights off or weekend ba..

gonna have SOC this week also.. must pass.. pass le jiu CPL liao.. more money le.. hopefully ba.. very long no take le.. and nv train also.. think will end here ba.. going off le.. hopefully have a peaceful week ahead in camp ba..

2008-05-25T20:59:00.003+08:00

sian..

going back camp once again.. weekly rountine.. bookin in soon liao.. was a short break.. had out camp run on friday.. lame shit.. jurong camp ppl go punggol park run.. kinda brainless and wasted my cab fare.. damn.. did realli nothing much this weekend except occassionally going out and nua-ing at home..

managed to catch Made of Honour during nights out on wed.. went watch with leslie.. show was a little cheesy.. but it was nice though.. romantic comedy.. LOL.. quite a way to spend the nights out.. then had ichiban also..

as usual sat went for coffee with xun kai at night.. plaza was crazy.. got overnight sale or something liddat.. then today went for a haircut.. now damn damn short.. oh wells.. shorter hair means no need cut so often ba..

thinking of a saving plan to help mi save more with the allowance i get every month.. think that i am kinda overspending every month liao le.. realli need to save more.. so got more money to spend after i ord and eventually when i further my studies.. no need to strain on my parents..

watching the charity program on channel 8.. kinda upset looking at the ppl suffering in sichuan due to the earthquake.. i guess its realli hope and love that can push ppl to survive ba.. can onli pray that more survivors can be found.. hope that villages and infrastructure can be rebuilt soon.. hope for the best and hope for miracles to happen ba..

think will end here liao le.. gonna go down to the bank coming weekend.. should start my saving plan le.. have to start planning OG outing again le.. as requested by ming xiong.. LOL.. gtg.. till thens..

2008-05-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

BOOK IN...

booking in a another hour's time.. went shopping with hong rui today.. went queensway ikea and walking ard queensway.. lucky could control myself and din not splurge my money on clothes and stuffs.. spent minimal money sia..

pondering bout some things yesterday night while toking to xun kai.. in life there are so many things that are opposites.. light and darkness, day and night, love and hate, good and bad.. opposites.. things totally different.. but issn't opposite itself a paradox? i guess its realli up to one's choice to decide ba..

bookin in le.. update again soon ba.. till then..

2008-05-19T01:31:00.006+08:00

Weekends..

its realli juz great to be having my weekends this week.. supposedly to have my weekends burnt for a noble cause de.. but duty in camp saved my weekends.. LOL.. had a class bbq on saturday.. at chen chen place.. most came.. but some din.. but was still quite fun.. very very long no bbq le.. enjoyed the time bbq-ing food and cooking for everyone.. chen chen kept opening liquor.. ppl vomitted.. ppl almost buang liao.. including myself even though a onli drank a little..

class photo.. quality was bad due to the timer.. kinda disappointed with myself.. not able to take a photo well.. oh wells..

the one of much better quality.. in courtesy of keat kee.. nicely taken by him..

photo i took before leaving chen chen place..

great to be seeing old frends and able to catch up a little on everybody lives.. ppl busy in army and ppl busy with their uni lives.. kinda luxurious to be able to take some time off for everyone to gather together for a class outing at this time of the year.. appreciated the effort from keat kee, chen chen and from everyone who came.. its nv easy to organise.. haha.. hopefully in future have the chance to gather more often for outing and stuffs..

from this bbq also got something very important.. officially pronounce myself being ALLERGIC TO ALCOHOL.. no more liquor and alcohol for mi from now on.. had been tormented by rashes over my body due to mere 3 cups of diluted liquor.. guess this issn't a very bad news afterall.. i dun drink anyways also.. haha.. NO ALCOHOL to mi.. woots..

sunday that was like juz yesterday went out with my mum to bai bai at 四马路观音庙.. very long no go out with my mum le.. so promised to go out with her yesterday.. not too bad.. wasn't as impatient like in the past when i went out with her le.. kinda accomplished something liddat.. guess i should bring my mum out more often when i have the time when i book out.. she always been busy with housework and seldom gets to enjoy herself.. time to realli bring her ard le.. LOL..

went look for xun kai also.. good to see him jumping and running after his gruesome field camp in tekong.. LOL.. had a nice nice chat thru the night.. another luxury that we are able to make time out of the stupid army schedules to meet up for a casual meeting.. a luxury that always bring mi new surprises everytime..

tml would be meeting my 30 buddy hong rui out to do some shopping.. lol.. guess i will end here ba.. realise is 2 plus in the morning le.. and its vesak day.. LOL.. update again when i'm free ba.. till then..

2008-05-12T11:38:00.008+08:00

...

22sec.. i missed my gold again.. great.. no more time to train liao.. guess can onli retake everything after exercises and stuffs liao.. zZz..

saturday went celebrate jing shi's bdae.. at fish and co jp.. the service that day was realli realli bad.. i mean bad.. dun have this dun have that and even got mucus like stuffs in my cup la.. omg.. wasn't like this the previous time i went.. kinda disappointed.. but the celebration was alright.. haha.. bought a cake for the bdae girl..

group photo we took..

yesterday morning went to ntu with my frend jayne for some talk.. then in the afternoon went shopping with fat tummy.. LOL.. bought a shirt from topman and a belt at far east.. xin tong sia.. less and less money for the month to spend liao le.. must start controling my spending le.. but lucky got voucher from zi cheng.. haha.. no need spend so much for the shirt.. LOL.. juz enjoy going out with xiao ming.. LOL..

gonna have a class bbq coming sat but doubt can go liao le.. cauz weekend should be burnt due to some unprecendented events in camp.. zZz.. then all schedule gonna be rushed le.. guess should say goodbye to quite a lot of weekends for the few months ahead liao le.. sian..

gonna be booking early tonight.. some briefing.. sian.. think end here ba.. dunno when can update again liao.. till then..

2008-05-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

diaos..

neck hurts.. irritating sia.. damn.. retaking ippt.. hopefully gold ba.. agony of taking 2.4.. it sucks..

very irritated..

dun wanna stay at home..

rather book in and fuck off..

no nagging..

no need listen to grumbles..

no need to bear with childish arguments..

no need to be a mediator..

no need to be in between..

NS is good..

wat a irony..

i'm realli tired..

我累了..

2008-04-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

35 seconds..

hai.. juz 35 seconds.. and i missed my ippt gold juz liddat.. omg.. totally no motivation and will power to fight on in the last stretch.. omg.. and i juz missed it.. 10.19.. personal best.. but not good enough.. running 2.4 is real agony sia.. omg.. lonely battle against ourselves.. and i have to try again next week.. omg.. hai.. hopefully can get it by then ba..

tuesday had a great surprise right after ippt.. omg.. was totally caught by surprise.. but realli thanks to my platoon mates especially bunk mates who helped mi and jeffrey get thru.. everyone chionged to help the 2 of us stunned at that moment.. LOL.. the reason why i decided that i had to stay in platoon 1.. haha.. thanks to everyone in platoon 1 which made things happen..

having break till sunday.. long awaited long weekend.. finally can like take a long break liao le.. need to do so many things.. so many things on my mind yet totally disoriented on wat to do sia.. guess mood not very good recently.. have been irritating quite alot of ppl lately.. and didn't tok nicely to my mum also.. wah sia.. i'm a loser sia..

guess its realli time to wake up liao.. have to go back to where i came from.. have to start sorting out my life liao.. omg.. think stop here le ba.. gonna go rest soon.. thinking of going jogging tml morning.. need some training liao..

2008-04-27T19:22:00.004+08:00

weekends..

woots.. the weekends was great.. out spending money.. LOL.. watched forbidden kingdom with fat tummy xiao ming yesterday.. haha.. putting a chinese cast acting in ang moh.. quite interesting ba.. the fighting scenes was not too bad.. haha.. but its still a little funny in a way.. haha.. 玉皇大帝speaking in english.. haha.. unexpectingly liu yi fei spoke the best english.. lol.. the combination of jet li and jackie chan.. godlike.. LOL..

omg liu yi fei.. haha.. she adds beauty to the show.. LOL..

last night went find xun kai also.. hahax.. botak.. LOL.. like i was in the past.. enlisted le.. LOL.. quite fun to see my juniors getting enlisted.. can ka jiao their botak heads like my seniors and frends did to mi.. haha.. realise that its fun.. wahaha..

today went out for lunch with joel.. haha.. went manhattan.. haha.. baked fish not too bad.. a very belated celebration for his bdae.. but felt a little bad.. cauz have been feeling drowsy due to medication.. then din realli tok very much.. next time think treat him to lunch again..

gonna be a short week this coming week.. cauz of labour day holidays.. haha.. can book out on wed i think.. friday block leave.. everything planned for us le.. lol.. but gonna have ippt on tuesday.. confirm $100 richer.. budden can i make it $200? haha.. can onli hope ba.. juz recovered.. and now i pulled my right arm.. how great.. think will end here le ba.. gonna book in later liao..

人因梦想而伟大，梦想因人而实现

2008-04-24T21:15:00.006+08:00

WOOTS!

i'm like officially slimmed down 20kg le.. haha.. and going down sia.. LOL.. 97 to 77.. LOL.. note the difference..

my last time jeans and current jeans.. LOL.. more reasons to go shopping lo.. lol.. gonna book in soon liao le.. blog again ba.. gonna watch forbidden kingdom with xiao ming this weekend.. yay~~~ like finally.. going off lo.. (:

2008-04-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

ATTEND C..

attended C for 2 days.. went to see the doctor again this morning.. got mc for tml also.. gonna book in tml night.. realli gotten very sick these few days.. apparently a virus is spreading among my company and everyone is getting it.. lucky i gone home and not spreading it to my platoon ppl..

been a very hectic few weeks.. busy with alot of things.. though nothing much to do in camp but have been busy during book out.. busy at home and meeting my frends here and there.. shopping with fat tummy and going out with my bmt frends..

its nice though.. can meet up with ppl i nv see for a long time le.. since tekong.. haha.. i guess alot have changed ba.. but do hope relationship hasn't..

guess i'm still sick ba.. a little incoherent here.. dun noe wat i realli driving about also.. time for my medication le.. haha.. going off le.. thanks for the well wishes fat tummy.. LOL..

2008-04-13T19:45:00.002+08:00

One Year..

2 days back one yr ago.. a 18 yr old boy stepped into the realms of no return.. braved the waters and reached an island.. picked up the courage, drew my sword and fought the miserable war till now.. against the dark forces waiting to see the light.. the time will come.. the war will end.. everything will be restored.. my life.. my freedom..

all crap la.. hahax.. finally the long awaited one yr soldier.. been in service for 1 yr liao le.. been a very very long time.. there has been tough times and memorable times.. gone thru quite a bit and can finally say that i am more of a man already..

this whole yr has taken away a lot.. yet it has also given mi a lot.. learning to stay strong and learning so many invaluable lessons in life.. this will nv have happened if i have been staying in my comfort zone.. i would nv have learnt how to appreciate.. i would nv have found wat i wanted in life.. i would nv have known who i am..

10 more months to go before i reach another crossroad in life.. but i noe i will have the strength to overcome it.. and i will be able realise my dreams for the future.. and to gain more valuable lessons for the days to come before i ord..

someone very important has juz enlisted.. but i'm sure he would be doing well in tekong.. he enlisted on the exact date one yr later than mi.. lol.. here would like to wish him all the best and good luck in his army life.. all the best xun kai..

think i will stop here ba.. gonna be booking in soon le.. $400 out for grab this week.. hope i will be able to do well for both combat shoot and for ippt.. signing off lo..

2008-03-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

sian..

had my friday night burnt and think my coming saturday will be burnt also.. 1 person screws us all sia.. haiz.. no choice la.. gonna be spending the whole 6 days in camp liao le.. wat a way to start a week..

need to start training le.. second yr window opening soon.. hoping for ippt gold this yr.. hope my jumping doesn't fail mi.. $200 sia.. lol.. going off le.. back to camp in few hours time.. WOOTS? 你

周杰伦-我不配..

小明问大华做人为何那么难，
大华反问为何要使做人难。

2008-03-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

updates.. like finally..

wow.. cobwebs have been spinning ard here le i guess.. haven been updating for a long time le.. since chinese new yr i guess.. have been very very busy lately and for the past weeks.. the CECC held in seletar camp and something else.. cannot mention here i guess..

nonetheless the past book outs have been fun.. meeting up with frends here and then.. have been spending meaningful time with frends i have not seen for quite some time le.. haha.. at least not wasting my bookouts ba..

went karoke at chevrons with my juniors wanting and zichao yesterday also.. then today met up with my bmt buddy kai xian.. realli appreciate the fact that i have the time to catch up with them after so long.. after months and even yrs..

i guess frends are alwaes there.. whether u want to hang on to the friendship is up to one's choice le ba.. i will hold on.. so will u?? ending here ba.. nothing much le.. booking in tml again.. guard duty on friday.. wat a great week ahead.. LOL..

2008-02-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

the day i'm waiting for.. for so long.. lol.. its chinese new yr le.. haha.. here comes my holidaes.. lol.. having off till this coming sunday and i will embark on my trip to seletar camp to become a liscensed bangla from monday onwards.. LOL..

chinese new yr.. good food.. ang pao.. enjoyment.. haha.. guess that is wat most ppl think for chinese new year ba.. the spamming of ba kua and pineapple tarts at relative's house and the money making us richer.. LOL.. but i guess there is realli much more to chinese new yr than that..

chinese new yr is a season of celebration.. a season of joy and a season of enjoyment.. but more importantly, its a season of love and a time to pay tribute.. a season to show appreciation to the loved ones ard us..

while praying juz now, tears almost overwhelmed mi.. i endured.. i miss my loved ones so much.. i finally understood the fact that we will onli learn to appreciate until things are lost.. and its especially in these festivals that vividly arouse the feelings within mi..

i guess this is the most appropiate occassion to pay tribute ba.. to my family especially.. who had been thru all hardships with mi throughout these yrs and my parents who had painstakingly brought mi up to this world.. and also to my frends who had been there with mi when i was down and needed ppl to tok to.. i love u guys..

i sure everyone will be visiting relatives during cny.. but i guess many a times ppl are juz patronising one another.. even relatives do.. this is the sad part of cny.. visit relatives juz for the sake of visiting.. i do so too.. so wat do chinese new yr mean to each and everyone out there??? guess i will end here ba.. and leave this qn for u ppl whom might come across this post to ponder about.. i got an answer for myself.. so do you??? flying off!!!

2008-01-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

bookin in soon...

its the time i am seriously not looking forward.. sian.. gonna book in in like 1 hour's time??? sian la.. 2 more weeks of sianzation for mi.. hopefully can pass by fast ba.. and soon will be chinese new yr le.. woots.. hahax.. did quite a bit of shopping with ming fei yesterday.. spent 100 over bucks on clothes and a new wallet.. LOL.. officially broke liao i guess..

guess i have to save and scrimp liao.. LOL.. still got so long till payday.. sobs.. have to survive on SAF rations ba.. LOL.. k la.. gtg le.. preparing for book in liao.. share a song here first.. hahax.. 无辜by曹格.. damn damn nice.. LOL.. flying off lo!!!

2008-01-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

finally..

hahax.. finally not lazy to change skin le.. lol.. got a new skin liao.. actually lazy to blog also.. wahahax.. gonna be busy for the next 2 weeks.. hopefully can survive thru ba.. LOL.. to all my frends sorry for not replying tag.. thanks for the new yr wishes and everything.. take care..

and to my dearest zi cheng here wanna wish u get well soon worx..bikes are damn dangerous.. hope he recover soon ba.. gtg le.. need to book in again.. hopefully can blog regularly ba.. flying off lo..

2008-01-01T02:52:00.000+08:00

2008!!!

woots.. its 2008 le.. another yr has passed so so so quickly worx.. last yr at this point of time i am still having the time of my life enjoying myself outside working.. LOL.. hanging out with colleagues and hanging out with frends.. cannot imagine now i am holding on to my 11B and now a soldier.. LOL..

2007 has been a great year.. though there were lots of ups and downs in life.. a lot of times feeling helpless and very lonely.. but realli glad to have a great bunch of frends ard and those very few confidants that had helped mi pulled thru the painful times throughout the yr.. LOL..

there were times i were sitting in the gutters.. but after solving all the problems and qns, i realised i have learnt a lot and grown a lot as a man.. started to appreciate so many things ard mi.. be it my family or my frends.. also learnt to let go bout lots of stuffs.. LOL..

a lot of memories engraved in my heart now.. all becos of my frends.. hahax.. like the surprise i got on sunday which will nv be forgotten.. LOL.. the dinner which i organised for sakae ppl.. LOL.. happened that they played prank on mi cauz its my bdae the day before.. and they made wei xia do the dirty job which was totally unconvincing.. LOL.. nonetheless it was fun.. hahax.. and realli appreciated everything that they got for mi.. the new urban male shirt and the wine.. budden not the pack of thing ba.. LOL..

then juz now went to countdown with xun kai at boon lay.. LOL.. totally wrong place.. LOL.. should have gone vivo instead.. haizZz.. ge tai and hokkien songs at boon lay.. totally mismatch with new yr worx.. LOL.. but i had fun though.. wahahax..then now reach home blogging lo.. lol.. guess will upload some photos later at the end of the post..

new yr.. ppl keeping toking bout new yr resolutions and writing them down on blogs.. i guess i wun do such stuffs ba.. a bit useless.. no point toking about resolutions and not doing things to make their hopes and wishes come true.. hahax.. i got wat my resolutions are for the yr in my heart and i will start working hard from today onwards.. and follow my principles for the yr to come..

i guess toking bout resolutions is less realistic.. hahax.. but i guess this is a very very special occassion to show aoppreciation to our loved ones and frends.. realli thank everyone for making 2007 a very special yr for mi.. LOL.. my sakae colleagues.. my og this yr.. my very own og 28.. my bmt buddies and unit buddies.. LOL.. most importantly, to my family who had been with mi throughout this yr in army..

have been thru quite a bit these few months or in fact this whole yr.. but special thanks to xun kai, zi cheng and joel who had been realli there to help mi whenever i needed something as simple as a listening ear.. hahax.. thanks tons ppl!!! can nv thank u ppl enough for being part of the pillar of support in my life..

hahax.. 2008 will be a very busy yr ahead also.. lots of training and hard work needed to be put in for final exercise in thailand next yr.. hopefully i can realli be ready and up to the task by this year.. its will also be another learning experience for mi in life and to learn more about myself.. to be a better man.. guess will end here le ba.. LOL..

guess time for some pics le.. LOL..

the group photo we took at sakae heeren.. the fateful place where i was punked.. LOL..

hahax.. the lot of presents i got.. bottle of wine, a pencil case, wisma voucher, a dragonfly, a new urban male Mr Masturbate shirt and of cos something i cannot take.. LOL..

2007-12-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

block leave!!!

hahax.. has been an eventful block leave for mi.. lol.. did quite alot of things during this block leave and not forgetting to exercise also.. hahax.. been playing bball often in skl with my seniors zi cheng and meng fei.. LOL.. also did quite a bit of shopping here and there and splurging my money on food and clothes.. LOL.. bought a new topman shirt.. hahax.. xin tong si le.. LOL.. nonetheless it was still worth it..

last saturday was dong zhi 冬至.. woke up early in the morning to make 汤圆.. hahax.. prepared with my sister.. hahax.. have been doing this since young.. LOL.. it was quite a interesting time of the yr.. cauz its the very last chinese festival till chinese new yr le.. LOL.. alot of memories came back also.. memories of younger days when i sit with my sis to prepare tang yuan.. LOL.. it was nice.. LOL..

also went to a church last saturday with my senior to support my frend in her christmas musical.. hahax.. wasn' too bad ba.. hahax.. but nonetheless felt a bit out of place cauz i wasn't a christian.. LOL.. however it did opened my eyes a little and my heart a little to learn to accept things in life and strengthened my belief in my own religion also.. LOL..

hmmm.. forgot wat i did last week le.. hahax.. shopping here and there till dunno go where liao.. lol.. and this week was equally busy.. hahax.. christmas eve went out with xun kai to vivo.. shopping for presents and also the fateful day i splurged on the shirt.. LOL.. rotted at home on christmas day and yesterday celebrated xun kai's bdae.. hahax.. had botak jones.. damn nice.. LOL..

today went out with my buddy joel.. long long time since we had met le.. hahax.. so nice to see him once again.. watched the movie I am Legend.. damn nice.. loved the plot and the emotional aspects of the movie.. a movie worth watching.. LOL.. then had dinner at a jap restaurant at jurong west stadium.. not too bad.. LOL.. celebrating my birthday in advance.. LOL.. thanks worx bro..

gonna be out for the next 2 days also.. hahax.. tml meeting my study group frends for lunch and sunday meeting my colleagues for dinner.. hahax.. then soon can conclude my block leave over le.. haizZz.. but the time was well spent la.. LOL.. it was a nice block leave.. LOL.. will be back for more posts the next 2 days ba.. probably with photos also.. hahax.. nv upload.. LOL.. gtg le.. flying off lo!! =)

2007-12-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

great week...

woots.. the past week has been great.. great.. lol.. it has been hectic and busy too.. in camp i mean.. busy preparing for my standby duties next yr.. preparing all the stores and stuffs.. budden when friday comes, here comes my block leave!!!

friday has been great.. went steamboat with my og frends.. my ogl zi cheng and valerie and all my og mates yee loong, ming xiong, jin chang, kai chuan, de yan and wei yuan.. the outing was great.. it has been like 1 yr plus since we last had our outing le.. very very long le.. everyone had been so so so busy.. but realli glad to be able to see them again.. reminicising the past and reliving the times we had in orientation.. the fun and joy i had.. hahax.. totally priceless..

realli very very grateful to have these bunce of ogls and og mates.. it has been a long 3 yrs.. and i'm so grateful that i am able to still get ppl out for dinner and stuffs.. intending to organise another outing sometime this week also.. hahax..

saturday morning went jogging and play bball with zi cheng.. very long no play bball le.. hahax.. getting lousier le.. then in the evening met up with zi cheng and natalie to go dinner at holland V.. hahax.. cauz long time no see nat le and she couln't make it for the outing.. so asked her out for dinner.. had nydc there.. hahax.. the food was great and the atmosphere was fun.. joked so much that my stomach started aching.. hahax.. it was simply fun.. hahax.. there's the pic we took together.. hahax.. zi cheng nat and mi..

sunday went off with my class in jc.. hahax.. long time no see many of them le.. went kbox at cineleisure.. but not many came.. but it was quite fun singing yesterday.. hahax.. going sing again with my cldds juniors sometime soon also.. lol..

my block leave officially starts today.. hahax.. last night book in juz to eat breakfast this morning but i cannot eat cauz got kidney checkup.. very lame.. book in juz to book out this morning.. but dun care la.. at least i have 2 weeks of civilian life somehow.. lol.. hopefully can meet up with more of my frends that i miss ba.. think i end here liao le.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

2007-12-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

back from exercise...

shall not dwell on my experience from exercise ba.. its terrible.. got freakingly sick outfield.. din do anything but sleep.. reported sick so many times to no avail.. haizZz.. horrible.. juz my luck ba.. haizZz.. but managed to finally pull thru my sickness le ba.. feeling much much better liao.. guess i'm still blessed ba..

finally.. i'm smelling my block leave le.. smelling fresh air and freedom.. woots.. nothing can hide my excitment le.. hahax.. have been looking so forward to this block leave.. so many outings to plan and so many things to do.. will be a tiring month ba.. budden i guess its very worth it.. so looking forward to seeing my frends whom i have not met for months and might be yrs le.. finally..

og outings, class outings, study group outings, dinner with juniors and kbox sessions are waiting for mi.. lol.. realli cannot wait.. hope this coming week can pass very very soon.. and here comes my precious leave.. hahax.. seem to be very kua zhang.. budden it means alot alot to a someone serving NS.. LOL..

dunno leh.. in the process of organising outings, ppl cannot be contacted.. ppl forgot who we are.. ppl changed contact yet not informed.. the brittle human relationship.. the brittle frendship.. time seems to be able to shatter this easily.. so unbelieveable yet so true.. a fact that is so difficult to accept..

frends whom i used to see everyday in skl in the past now hardly spoke a word with mi.. nothing to tok about.. toking for the sake of toking.. and there's hardly time for ppl to keep the relationship in this fast progressing world.. every minute the world is changing.. every human being on this tiny earth is busy with their work and their life.. hardly got time to accomodate for each other.. for that little time to catch up with each other..

guess this is life ba.. guess this is reality.. but i guess wat we can do is to hang on tight to the relationships we have with everyone we noe ba.. we must try at least.. we nv try, we nv noe.. thats why till now i'm trying to make effort with my frends to organise outings and such.. to strengthen the frendships ba.. hahax.. better than regretting when we lost it.. hahax..

haizZz.. like old man liddat.. think realli getting older and older le ba.. think stop here le ba.. tired le.. blog again during block leave ba.. hope to get a new skin and revive my blog then.. LOL.. flying off lo..

2007-11-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

finally back...

woots.. finally back from gruelling exercises the past 2 weeks and the busy preparation for the exercises for the past weeks.. very very drained digging shellscrape and performing the tasks during the exercises.. but glad to say i onli got the very last exercise next week and here comes my block leave!!! LOL..

my status is over le.. and my health is ok le also.. hahax.. specialist said my blood pressure going down le.. and i am losing more and more weight.. hahax.. 17kg lo.. wahahax.. bound to lose more next week during exercise cauz will onli be on combat ration.. shiok.. getting my $100 soon from ippt liao also.. wahahax..

hmmm.. guess i am realli disorganised in the things i say ba.. very very random thoughts.. alot of things recently on my mind.. thinking alot of things.. hahax.. i'm aging i guess.. thinking so much.. hahax.. guess army realli too bored le.. nothing to do.. LOL..

dunno la.. quite troubled actually.. alot of things on my mind and thinking thru alot of stuffs.. more about army stuffs ba.. things i wan to do and do not want to do.. its realli thru army that guys realli grow up and become a real men i guess.. cauz army not onli train us physically, but also mentally.. in a sense that we get to see alot of things in life.. selfishness in man and hypocrisy in human..

i guess as a human i am selfish too ba.. i'm a hypocrite also ba.. i dare say ppl put on masks in front of different ppl.. i'm no different.. i act differently in front of different ppl.. i have indeed become selfish in army.. i always have doubts and questions bout why i had to do this and that while others dun in camp.. and alwaes think i'm at a disadvantage doing so much work.. i'm selfish.. everyone does so too..

i guess this is part and parcel of life ba.. its something that humans cannot avoid in life.. its a cross junction in life ppl have choose their path from ba.. the choice to make a right decision that will not defeat one's purpose in life.. and not going against one's principles ba.. guess i have somehow made a choice le.. and i got answers to many many of my questions le.. guess i have to stand by my choice ba..

guess i have to go think thru lots more stuffs ba.. to realli grow up ba.. like my PS say.. hopefully we can ord noeing that we are real men who had gone thru national service and served our commitment.. but i guess its not the commitment that matters.. its the learning and the various lessons we gained at become a real man.. and that we have strengthened our beliefs and convictions in life ba.. hahax.. and that we nv regretted the choices we make in army and in life..

guess i will end here ba.. getting nagging le.. hahax.. like freaking old man liddat.. LOL.. hoping to get thru next week smoothly and that i can endure thru the final evaluation exercise for the year.. then i will be free for block leave!!! hahax.. ask mi out worx.. LOL.. guess i will end here ba.. will be back soon.. with pictures and stuffs i took recently.. flying off!!!

2007-11-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

broke...

lol.. hahax.. i'm like officially broke liao le.. wahahax.. yesterday went plaza meet up my frend for coffee and came across this fujifilm sale.. woots.. got a brochere and read it.. freak.. the next second i decided i wanted a new digi cam.. lol.. reason why i broke liao..

LOL.. got the slim and sleek one.. finepix Z10fd.. lol.. 7.2megapixels.. at a price of $378.. hahax.. cauz went with my sis and she also happened to pass by the counter and got to noe the sales personel over there.. got quite a good bargain.. lol.. free extra battery and lens cleaning kit.. lol.. here's a pic of it.. i bought the black one.. lol..

guess i realli seemed super excited.. lol.. which some may think i'm over reacting.. lol.. but its like finally i got myself a digi cam of my own liao le.. no need borrow from my sis liao le.. hahax..

had alwaes been interested in photography but i juz dun have a camera of my own.. but now i do.. lol.. so happy.. wahahax.. finally can do something and learn something i alwaes wanted to.. something of my interest..

recently have been rather emo.. thinking alot of things in life.. thinking alot.. seriously.. looking for many answers within mi.. guess i can onli say i reverted back to who i was in the past le.. something i dread but it happened.. realli looking for answers.. trying to sort out the disagreements within mi.. figuring out wat i realli want.. and trying to be myself once again..

it was nice toking to my platoon mate sinda and leslie while we were doing sentry on friday live firing.. got more insights about life and got to noe more about religion.. and i somehow sort of found some answers.. even though din realli share with them wat i was thinking.. hahax.. nonetheless i realli appreciated the time i spent with them on friday.. hahax..

hahax.. still very happy that i got a new camera.. hahax.. think gonna bring it out where ever i go ba.. take pictures i like.. especially sunsets.. hahax.. next week gonna be a short week.. unit anniversary plus deepavali.. woots.. holidays coming!!! but no money to spurge liao.. lol.. think i go off le ba.. booking in in 2 hours time.. lol.. blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!

2007-10-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

freaking bored...

book out on friday after out camp run.. went makan and play pool with my platoon mates.. refreshing experience ba.. first time going out with them.. hahax.. still not too bad.. had fun la.. wahahax..

yesterday went for a run early in the morning with joel.. lol.. ran from home to jj.. hahax.. estimated ard 10km.. LOL.. run wasn't too bad.. hahax.. at least still got stamina to run long distances.. LOL.. also did some shopping for things i need.. wahahax.. today rotted at home for the whole day.. sianzZz..

dunno leh.. recently dunno why keep feeling that there is something missing somehow in my life sia.. a part of mi that i had seemed to have lost since in entered army.. i realli dunno wat it is though.. feeling so empty inside..

every week book in to wait for book out.. but yet i dunno wat i should do during book out.. haizZz.. this feeling suxs man.. dunno why.. scrolling down my phonebook, realised i do noe many ppl.. but i realise there are not many i realli noe.. haizZz.. dunno la.. guess my mind is quite messed up right now ba.. and this suxs..

guess i realli should spend some time in camp thinking liao le.. sort out my mind ba.. dunno la.. dunno wat i thinking also.. hah.. such a irony..

think end here ba.. enough of my nonsense.. LOL.. A levels starting next week liao le.. here wishing all my juniors all the best and good luck for their exams.. hahax.. may everyone of them can do well for their exams ba.. hahax.. booking in soon.. flying off!!!

2007-10-21T19:01:00.000+08:00

wow.. it has been freaking freaking long since i ever blogged liao le.. hahax.. had been busy going out on recent book out meeting my frends.. lol.. book out is precious for army guys u noe.. lol.. hahax..

the past few weeks have been fine.. not much of physical activities for mi cauz apparently i am still on light duties.. ya.. so dun have to do much also.. mostly sai gang when ppl are doing all the work.. lol..

budden recently the level of sian-zation has been rising in mi.. the more and more i feel fed up in my platoon.. everyday juz dota and dota among the rest of my platoon mates.. everyday tok about it wun sian de.. wa kao.. hear liao also sianzZz.. haizZz.. worse one is the unlimited complains and complains by some.. everyday complain bout training about life in camp and lots of shyt.. they juz cannot accept reality.. haizZz.. i realli wonder why some ppl are so naive in the way they see things.. haizZz..

i dunno leh.. i have a chance to get of of all the shyt.. and i guess i will be going for it ba.. down pes is the onli way le ba.. its not cauz of the mundane and labourious work liao.. its about the ppl.. i juz cannot work with some ppl ba.. haizZz.. hopefully i can get out of hell now.. haizZz.. afterall i guess humans are selfish ba.. including mi..

enough about nonsense in camp liao le ba.. weekends had still been great for mi going out and chilling out with frends.. lol.. yesterday juz went vivo dinner.. hahax.. hopefully next week can meet up some of my jc frends ba.. lol.. i'll stop here ba.. going back to camp later.. blog again sometime soon ba.. flying off!!!

2007-10-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

haizZz..

got guard duty on sunday.. going back tonight.. sianzZz.. now worried sick.. my mum juz dislocated her shoulder.. again.. dunno wat to do sia.. juz now wanted to change guard duty.. but no one willing to help mi.. haizZz.. i dun blame ppl ba.. cauz its a sunday.. men is selfish, the world is cruel i guess.. haizZz..

realli worried now sia now that i not at home cannot help my mum do stuffs.. haizZz.. hope that she would be fine soon.. but i noe she wun recover so soon de.. the more worried i am now.. haizZz.. dunno how sia..

but i guess need to thank my PS who helped mi call the rest and tried his best to help mi.. realli thank him millions.. appreciated his help tons.. guess i will end here ba.. dunno wat else to say liao le.. flying off.....

2007-09-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

who am i???

sianzZz.. continuously sick.. haven recover yet sia.. cough every night.. feeling so lethargic every single day in camp sia.. today finally book out le.. finally got some time off from camp to do the things i like to do le..

indeed army took away 2 yrs of my life.. but now i realli start to wonder.. izzit a realli bad thing??? these few weeks i been asking myself many qns.. looking for many answers within mi.. wat do i realli wan in my life??? wat are the things that i realli wan in life??? i seriously dunno..

i realli dunno leh.. this seems to be some sort of identity crisis ba.. now i'm in middle of nowhere.. not studying, not in the society.. i realli start to wonder who i realli am.. wat am i as a person??? i realli dunno.. wat do i wan for my future??? wat are the things i wanna do in the future.. i have not planned or neither decided.. i realli dunno wat i want..

few days back got a scolding from my frend.. guess that was realli the call that woke mi my.. and to realli start thinking of my life le.. from wat i can see from the past weeks i guess i am realli changing back to who i am in the past liao le.. i guess i dun wan that to happen ba.. i am realli a bastard in the past.. but i realli hope i wun change back..

this feeling realli sucks.. i seriously got no clue on wat to do.. and i seriously got no clue to wat i am thinking about also.. i guess its now up to mi to decide le ba.. wat i realli wan in life.. and to realli reflect on the things i did.. hopefully i can realli give myself am answer real soon ba.. haizZz..

guess i will end here ba.. a little tired liao le.. maybe blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!

2007-09-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

sick..

its such a great feeling to be able to book out after a week in camp every weekend.. but it isn't a good feeling to be sick during book out.. cough and cough, runny nose and having fever.. wat can be worse than this??? though i went out still.. but the cough is seriously killing mi.. arghhh.. this suxs..

finally completed FPC liao le.. course is finally over on friday.. does this mean life is going to get better??? i dunno.. but i guess not for mi.. cauz the review for my recent medical appointment wasn't good.. my blood pressure is going sky high.. and yet i am normal.. can run can jump can play.. haizZz.. wat is happening to my body??? izzit failing mi already???

i might be able to down pes soon.. might.. cauz of my blood pressure.. i am happy.. yet unhappy.. isn't that contradicting??? isn't that stupid??? down pes means my body is realli down le ba.. should i realli be happy??? i realli dunno.. so sianzZz sia this feeling.. i want to down pes yet i dun wan my body to fail mi.. haizZz..

realli dunno wat to say now sia.. dunno wat i am feeling also.. down pes can definitely give mi a much better life.. yet i wanna hold on to the brotherhood i had juz fostered with my platoon mates.. such mixed feelings sia.. haizZz.. guess i am juz stupid ba.. go and think of such stuffs.. sianzZz..

guess i will end here liao le ha.. dun wanna complain anymore liao le.. bl;og again sometime when i book out again ba.. waiting for 27th to come.. the moment of truth.. haizZz.. flying off..

i'm scared.. wat should i do???

2007-09-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

haizZz...

did lots of cleaning up today.. washing field pack and uniforms.. my god.. it was crazy.. took 3 whole hours to finish washing away all the mud and dirt.. burnt my afternoon away sia.. late afternoon went joel's home.. hahax.. terry is still as adorable.. hahax.. kept chasing mi ard when i reached joel's home.. hahax.. somehow my spirit was lifted in the day.. then at night went dinner with my sis and played pool also..

now late in the night in front of my computer.. nothing much to do.. starting to think about so many stuffs.. seriously there are so many things on my mind now.. and i dunno how to put them across in words.. nothing much i can say bout the army cauz i might get charged if i said the wrong stuffs..

i dunno leh.. nowadays i'm seriously feeling helpless.. in fact useless liao le.. army has realli changed my life so much so much.. i hardly have time for my family.. needless to say my frends.. i'm seriously feeling guilty.. for not putting in the effort to find time for my parents and frends..

the dinner i wanted to organise failed.. cauz i din have the time to go and ask my frends personally.. onli asked linda to help mi cauz of the field camp.. in the end it failed.. the commitment is seriously too heavy for mi to handle liao le.. and i realli have the feeling that i am drifting away from so many of my frends.. haizZz..

i realli feel so bad that i cannot be there for some of my frends when they needed someone to tok to.. juz a listening ear, i cannot be there.. all i can do is to chat during my book out and i realli can hardly do anything about it cauz the next day i'm back in camp.. haizZz.. i'm seriously lost liao le.. i seriously dunno wat i should do.. i'm juz so helpless.. i'm juz so useless.. haizZz..

guess i will stop here ba.. realli dunno wat to say le.. haizZz.. sianzZz.. think better sleep earlier.. sleep liao jiu no need think about probs liao le.. hahax.. but i guess escapism doesn't solve a problem right??? sianzZz.. flying off..

2007-08-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

finally back..

woots.. finallu back to blogging after so so so long liao le.. haven been blogging for a few weeks liao le.. guess this few weeks had been hectic and going out with frends is more important than crouching in front of the computer ba.. LOL..

guess some quick updates ba.. juz finished a gruesome field camp this week.. and i mean gruesome.. had to do our job in mud.. a whole area of mud.. high sia.. hahax.. everyone is totally muddy after the field camp sia.. now have a big big bag of laundry and dirty stuffs inside my duffel bag awaiting mi to clean up.. guess my mum will kill me if she sees..LOL..

seriously dunno wat to do during this book out.. totally no aim about wat to do.. supposed to have a dinner for everyone in sakae de.. budden cancelled liao le cauz i guess too many ppl cannot make it liao le.. no point organising something that onli a few ppl come.. defeats the purpose of a group dinner ba.. LOL.. a bit disappointed though.. cauz realli thought can meet up with everyone to have fun.. haizZz.. but i guess still got next time ba.. forget it..

think i will end here ba.. a bit sleepy le.. cauz onli slept at 4am this morning cauz was doing cleaning up.. hahax.. cleaning is a super crazy and tiring job.. hahax.. try to blog again sometime soon ba.. hahax.. flying off..

was i wrong???

2007-08-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

great weekend!!!

woots.. it was a great weekend.. hahax.. booked out on friday after a super tiring field camp i had.. hahax.. managed to pull thru the tough field camp.. hahax.. some encouragement for mi ba.. lol.. the week after gonna have another field camp again.. zZz.. no choice lo.. cauz i field engineer mah.. suck thumb and do it ba.. lol..

on friday rushed back home from kent ridge park after the out camp run.. hahax.. went to watch the fireworks with anna, zhen lin, jing shi, wei xia and melvin.. managed to get a great place and we had a great view of the fireworks.. the fireworks was simply amazing.. super super nice to watch de.. hahax.. i'm mesmerised by the super beautiful fireworks also.. hahax.. it was a compensation somehow cauz i din manage to watch the fireworks with them on national day..

realli had lots of fun on that day.. hahax.. especially the fireworks.. hahax.. more importantly its the company i went with.. guess it wun be as fun if the company wasn't right.. hahax.. so thanks guys for coming even though it was such a last minute arrangement and u all managed to make it even though of study commitments.. thanks guys.. hahax.. shall upload some photos too.. hahax..

the fireworks are simply amazing.. hehex..

beautiful.. hahax..

hehex.. not forgetting we met linda too.. wahahax.. the lao ren jia.. wahahax..

yesterday did practically nothing.. din go for the fireworks also.. cauz couldn't find frend to go with.. hahax.. suan le ba.. lol.. wait for linda to send mi the pics she took.. see whether realli nicer mah.. lol.. today went watch movie with my mum.. 881.. hahax.. some show about getai in singaopore de.. quite a nice show.. funny yet touching.. and a little heart wrenching also.. hahax.. now waiting to book into camp liao.. haizZz..

next week sat hoping to go out dinner with the peeps in sakae.. long long time no see everyone liao le.. hahax.. organising a get together.. hope many can make it ba.. hahax.. guess i will end here ba.. flying off le.. hahax..

2007-08-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

sick.. zZz..

sia la.. wat a nice timing to be sick sia.. booked out from camp yesterday afternoon and it was damn damn shiok cauz i onli have to book in on tuesday night.. sianzZz.. now having cough flu fever.. cannot enjoy the long long weekend liao le.. grounded at home today cauz my fever was on and off.. slept thru the whole afternoon onli to find my fever came back.. haizZz.. thats juz great..

enough of whining liao le.. hopefully i will be fine by tml ba.. need to go beach road tml de.. lol.. and there will be field camps coming up soon liao.. one immediately after national day.. 4 day 3 night.. doubt there will be much of rest and i bet it will be a hell of a time.. haizZz.. suck thumb and endure lo.. LOL..

haizZz.. NS is realli a funny thing sia.. dun realli noe how to describe.. sometimes realli think NS is not too bad afterall.. all we have to do is to follow orders and do things that our commanders ask us to.. no need to think much about anything.. juz to get thru the week and wait for bookout onli.. nothing much to consider and nothing much to worry about unlike civilian world.. so many things to do and so many things to think about..

budden whenever in camp, all we think about is to go back civilian world and not stay in camp.. cauz army life suxs.. budden yet wanna go back to civilian world where we have to think about so many things.. like to catch up with frends and maintain relationship.. such an irony sia.. realli puzzled about wat is my stand towards NS also.. zZz..

however one thing i am sure is that this 2 yrs is realli a test for mi.. to learn to discipline myself and to understand myself.. NS has taken alot away from mi.. but it has also taught mi alot.. NS has taken time away from mi from my frends and family, but yet it taught mi to appreciate and cherish them much much better..

haizZz.. nonetheless NS has also made mi realli helpless in my life.. helpless towards my frends especially.. there are so many things i wanna do.. to maintain the friendship like i alwaes said.. budden now i am so helpless.. i hardly got time to even contact so many of my frends.. even those whom i can contact i can hardly help them when they have their problems.. cauz i'm stuck in camp and dun noe wat happen exactly.. it makes mi feel so bad.. cauz i can onli noe wat happen when i read their blogs and stuffs.. it makes mi feel like a failure..

i guess the onli thing i can do is to cherish the time i have during book out to catch up with my frends ba.. i noe many of my frends are facing problems of their own right now.. i guess the onli thing i can say is hope u guys can face life with courage and to overcome the problems.. its easy to say but i noe its difficult to do it.. but i hope u guys can gain the courage to solve ur problems ba..

i guess i will end here ba.. think should stop le.. if not will go on and on and on.. hahax.. i'm a naggy person lol.. gtg le.. flying off!!! take care everyone!!! =)

2007-07-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

moodless...

sianzZz.. a few more minutes i'm going off liao le.. booking in back into jurong camp.. zZz.. totally sianzZz.. haizZz.. have to endure another week before i will be back.. CEC ended.. start of the actual course field pioneer course FPC... which will be a crazy and extremely xiong course.. bo bian suck thumb endure thru the next 3 months ba..

hopefully this friday can book out ba.. cauz got chance no need go for ndp this coming week.. hopefully lo.. budden i am in jurong camp.. guess chance not high ba.. think i will stop here le ba.. going off le... take care all my frends.. cya all soon.. flying off..

2007-07-22T13:24:00.000+08:00

haizZz...

finally back at home right now after a long day yesterday at NDP.. managed to book out earlier at 11 liddat.. but guess wat.. i am going back to jurong camp tonight worx.. thats juz amazing man.. my off-in-lieu flew away juz becos of a live firing i going to have tml.. arghhh!!! damn sian la.. hardly got a day of off sia.. zZz..

seriously.. life is terrible right now.. going thru shyt every single day.. doing stuffs that seems so useless in my life.. doing things that will nv benefit my life in any single way.. life has become mundane and hard to pass.. went to see MO.. got excused heavy loads and upper limbs cauz of aggravation of ligament tear on my little finger.. budden still got punished.. why??? the sgts reasoning is this: "ur body very heavy meh???" lan lan suck thumb.. zZz..

haizZz.. yesterday mi and my frend got scolded by a sgt in public while on duty.. he's an idiot.. call him ask him for instructions say we cannot wait.. after that come back see us say we not doing our job and used vulgar on us in public.. seriously i dun think thats showing authority.. but showing that he's juz an uncivilised being.. so much for the civilised and cultured society every country is aimming for..

sianzZz la.. now can onli endure lo.. common engineering course is ending this week le.. which means the real shyt is coming le.. might or might not be posted to plant.. i dunno.. i realli pray hard these sufferings can end soon ba.. 1 yr 10 months.. seems so short.. but everyday is simply a torture.. enduring everyday juz to be able to see my family and frends every weekend.. guess i will be doing so for the rest of my army life ba..

realli thinking a lot recently.. i realli question myself why am i so suay ba.. budden i guess i got the ans to my question le.. life is unfair always.. and guess everything is destined ba.. onli thing we can do is to live on a hope.. and endure thru everything life has got for us.. it will make us stronger and to endure greater hardships in future.. thats when i can truly say i have grown up and finally a real man..

guess i will end here ba.. enough of grumbling for the week le.. looking forward to the next book out ba.. hahax.. book in timing: 1930.. level of sianzation: limitless.. hahax.. flying off!!!

2007-07-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

finally back..

woots.. finally back to blogging liao le.. guess i have not been blogging for a very long time liao le.. busy with NS.. and NDP.. hardly got anytime left for mi to do my own stuffs sia.. its realli a blessing to be able to sit in front of the computer right now typing this post..

schedule for my current course in army has been very very hectic.. very busy.. next week onli have a day off.. haizZz.. lucky 2 more weeks it will end and proceed on to next stage of the course.. hopefully i can be posted to a slacker company within jurong camp ba.. hopefully.. shall not mention wat i do in army this few weeks ba.. cauz might get charged.. LOL.. and its seriously too boring to mention also.. wahahax.. so guess shall tok bout wat i did these 2 days ba..

yesterday went out with anna, jing shi, wei xia, zhen lin and vincent to go celebrate anna de birthday.. hahax.. celebrated it earlier cauz i dun have time next week to celebrate for her.. so had a early one.. hahax.. went town walk walk and tok cock.. then had pepper lunch at taka.. thats when i and zhen lin sneak out to buy the cake for anna.. budden guess the toilet excuse has been used too many times liao le.. anna already knew something fishy is going on.. hahax.. so not much of a surprise ba.. wahahax..

nonetheless i still had fun.. looking at them playing ard doing silly stuffs.. wahahax.. guess the one week of suffering inside camp is realli worth it de.. hahax.. guess shall upload some photos ba.. take note at how anna cuts the cake.. LOL..

the bdae cake.. hahax..

hahax.. cutting the edge sia.. LOL..

hahax.. wat happened was quite expected la.. budden nonetheless hope everyone has enjoyed themselves.. especially the bdae girl worx... hahax.. here wishing u happy birthday in advance worx anna.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. going back to camp tonight liao le.. haizZz.. very sianzZz.. and nothing to look forward to this week.. nvm ba.. endure and suck thumb lo.. bo bian.. flying off lo..

2007-07-02T11:06:00.000+08:00

haizZz...

finallu back here blogging after a hell of a week.. it has been a crazy crazy week for mi in jurong camp.. and my conclusion towards jurong camp is that it totally sux.. the system is screwed up la seriously.. tio tekan every single day and there is no reasoning why we are punished.. idiots.. keep on punishing us like we are slaves.. did 1000 plus push ups in juz a week.. wat the hell..

there is nothing known as welfare in jurong camp.. all we hope for is to be able to use the phone for 1 or 2 hrs at night.. and we dun get to kepp our phone at all too.. sianzZz.. will be confiscated at night.. stupid system sia.. dun understand wat the hell they are doing.. idiots.. somemore our bunks sux like hell.. 18 ppl squeeze into a small small bunk.. with 18 lockers.. can imagine the amount of space we have ba.. idiot sia.. jurong camp is a screwed up place la.. totally screwed up man.. idiots idiots idiots..

lucky we still have a nice PC and sgt over there.. both of them damn nice.. help to fight for welfare for us.. and they dun anyhow punish us de.. unless we realli make mistakes.. and they will explain the reasoning to us also.. these are the qualities of a good commander.. not like some stupid ass in my platoon who whack us like we are their slaves.. idiots..

budden like my mum says.. those idiots will get retribution someday de.. i believe in karma too.. they will someday get wat they deserve for wat they did on us de.. maybe their sons may get this hell someday.. we never noe.. aiya.. realli dun wanna curse or say things bad bout them de.. budden realli cannot tolerate their idiot-ness sia.. these ass.. haizZz..

this weekend passes so quickly sia.. saturday help out in NDP cauz my unit is involved.. in charge of vip carparks.. can onli conclude that the freaking big shots are snobs.. snobbish ppl.. shall not say le ba.. damn pissed off till dun feel like thinking liao le.. lucky next week no need do this shyt again..

lucky yesterday was fun.. went dinner with jing shi and anna at sakae.. cauz suddenly feel like eating jap food.. hahax.. so went down westmall makan.. hahax.. saw some familiar faces and coco is back also.. hahax.. then after dinner met zhen lin also.. so went CSC play pool.. hahax.. it was fun yesterday.. can relax after a hell week.. hahax..

i think i will stop here ba.. very very long post.. getting naggy.. wahahax.. think will blog again next time ba.. going back camp tonight suffer again.. haizZz.. more and more i hate booking in.. miss my buddies in BMT.. everyone of them.. haizZz.. no wonder sgts said BMT is the best time in our army lives.. haizZz.. flying off..

2007-06-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

JURONG CAMP HERE I COME!!!

guess this is the very last post for the week ba.. LOL.. going off to jurong camp liao le.. gonna start my job as a field engineer from tml onwards.. dunno wat is in store for mi.. very excited towards this very new unit.. but worried somehow also.. hahax.. new environment.. pioneer unit.. dunno wat is waiting for mi..

hahax.. somehow i will try to survive thru de ba.. hopefully can learn some new things that can help mi in my life ba.. also hoping that the vocation can somehow help mi get a uni course next yr ba.. hahax.. hoping lo.. praying hard.. hahax..

think i will end here ba.. going off to my aunt's place liao le.. and to pack my unpacked field pack and duffel bag.. take care lo all my frends in the meantime!!! cya again soon!!! flying off!!! =)

2007-06-23T11:38:00.000+08:00

sianzZz

super super tired today.. neck aching.. has been aching for days liao le.. the splitting headache i had from yesterday still not ok yet.. sianzZz.. so so tired liao le.. of so many things.. dunno how to say also..

yesterday morning went play bball with my platoon mates.. hahax.. first time going out with ppl in my platoon.. not bad la.. it was fun yet tiring.. cauz too long never exercise liao during the block leave.. hahax.. guess have to try go for a run soon.. which is today and tml.. wahahx.. budden doubt i got the motivation to do so..

hahax.. while playing everyone is like making calls to check where they are posted to.. a number of them there are posted to OCS.. hahax.. thats great.. sianzZz.. was not very worried budden still hoping that i can get into a slack unit.. so went home after bball to check on my vocation..

got into a weird one.. hahax.. FD ENGR PNR- PLANT.. according to my senior is field engineer.. i'm the pioneer batch and my role is like to plant explosives and set up wire obstacles.. sounds dangerous.. sianzZz sia.. hopefully its slack ba.. hahax.. but it doesn't sound so... like chiong sua that type.. dunno la.. i will noe wat it is on monday.. and the good thing is that it is at jurong.. yipee.. wahahax..

supposedly going play pool with reggie and melvin de.. budden in the end din go.. cauz of the bad headache.. sorry worx reggie ps u.. ard evening went out with wei xia zhen lin and vincent go dinner.. cauz long time no see xia liao le.. so went lo.. went IMM makan pepper lunch and also visit linda.. hahax.. long time no see liao also.. wahahax.. after went play pool at CSC.. sianzZz..

haizZz.. some things on my mind dunno how to say also.. and think shouldn't say also ba.. haizZz.. feel so puzzled on wat to do now.. haizZz.. think end here ba.. dun say le.. flying off..

2007-06-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

today was a good day.. woke up early in the morning.. played a bit of game then went out le.. hahax.. went out with edmund, boon hou and yong qing to orchard cine to sing K.. hahax.. apparently town is the common place we all can go.. cauz everyone of us is scattered ard singapore.. LOL.. hahax.. it was fun singing together with them.. hahax.. its very comfortable to be in the company.. hahax.. sang till 3 plus then went rot ard orchard.. hahax..

i went back first cauz getting money from sakae.. hahax.. din noe i still got a bit of money left in sakae.. hahax.. 40 bucks worx.. hahax.. can pay my handphone bills liao le.. wahahax.. sort of unexpected money when i am now so short of cash liao.. hahax.. so in time man.. wahahax.. saw alot of new faces in sakae and the onli familiar faces i can see is reggie and agnes.. hahax.. think reggie is leaving also liao.. anna leaving next week.. finally.. everyone tuo li ku hai liao le.. hahax..

went home played a bit of game then went out for dinner with anna, zhen lin and jing shi.. hahax.. took bus to batok to walk to gombak together with them.. LOL.. had prata at gombak there.. not too bad la.. quite nice.. budden they say a bit hard today.. after dinner walked together with jing shi back home cauz afraid she will be caught by "ahem".. wahahax.. then i went back home rotting till now.. hahax.. while in the lift at jing shi home they even played POLICE N THIEF with mi.. went up and down the lift till i fed up and waited downstairs.. LOL.. wahahax..

think i will stop here ba.. a bit tired liao le.. think i blog again another time ba.. gtg.. flying off!!!

2007-06-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

WOOTS!!!

today was a great day.. celebrated vincent's 18th bdae.. hahax.. meet in the afternoon to have suki buffet.. hahax.. actually i wanted to go earlier to get the cake for vin de.. budden was late.. then vincent saw mi at the ATM there.. sianzZz.. cannot use draw money as excuse to go buy liao le.. so no choice met up with anna and jing shi who were already at lot 1..

hahax.. somehow anna and jing shi got the cake for vincent even though i din reply their msg when they are deciding on the cake.. wahahax.. mi and my lousy phone with lack of memory space for msgs.. hahax.. had buffet and zhen lin joined us later.. hahax.. ate till 5 plus.. and we were finished witht he buffet.. hahax.. and we finally set up the surprise for vincent when he went washroom.. prepared the cake before he came back.. wahahax..

true enough vincent was quite surprised.. hahax.. sang bdae song and then let him make wish and blow candles.. hahax.. think shall upload the photos i took today ba.. hahax.. the happy bdae boy.. wahahax..

vincent's bdae cake.. hahax..

the bdae boy.. hahax..

after that went CSC play pool.. hahax.. saw the president there worx.. apparently it was the official opening of CSC and Mr Nathan was invited ba.. hahax.. play pool see president worx.. lol.. wahahax.. finished with playing pool then went westmall walk walk jalan jalan.. then anna and jing shi decided to watch men in white, "gui ah gui ah".. hahax.. the movie was lame.. no storyline ba.. budden very funny.. LMAO.. wahahax.. but in the movie somehow showing the ugly side of singaporeans ba.. hahax.. hidden meaning worx.. lol.. wahahax..

after the movie went back home le.. doing nothing much.. wanna play bball tml leh.. sianzZz.. budden seems like my senior KO from thailand trip for army le.. haizZz.. hopefully he can tml ba.. hahax.. think i will end here le ba.. blog again another time.. flying off!!!

2007-06-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

POP LO!!!

training to be soldiers,

fight for our land.

once in our lives,

2 yrs of our time.

have u ever wondered,

why must we serve?

becos we love our land,

and we want it to be free to be free!

hahax.. 9 weeks have passed le.. some say its a short time.. some say its a long time.. but to mi, i felt this 9 weeks was a long 9 weeks.. full of ups and downs in this 9 weeks of BMT.. wat we do everyday is illustrated by a stanza from a army song we sing everyday above.. but i am realli glad to have learnt and noe more things liao le.. and no longer as ignorant liao le..

this 9 weeks of BMT has been tough.. physically.. but more importantly is mentally.. everyone that have gone thru BMT will agree with mi that everyone of us have grown stronger mentally and able to cope with greater stress and learn how to deal with relationships with frends and family..

we had our Passing Out Parade yesterday.. the spirit was dampened by a extremely heavy rain in the morning.. everyone thought that there wun be a parade liao le.. but luckily the rain stopped and the sun came out.. i was happy.. cauz we could have the parade.. i felt that POP will nv be meaningful if we din have a parade.. hahax.. everyone endured thru the heat in the parade square and i am sure the proudest moment of BMT is when our parents put on our jockey caps for us.. we finished the parade and passed out as PRIVATES!!! hahax..

after the parade took lots of photos with everyone in the platoon.. its the best moment of BMT that i will rmb for life..hahax.. shall now upload some photos that i have taken with everyone in the platoon ba as well as the photos i took with my beloved parents.. hahax..

with my mum and dad..

raven platoon 4!!!

the place i will miss..

think i will upload some other pictures another time ba.. hahax.. i will realli miss the time in BMT.. all the hardships everone have gone thru together and all the fun and laughter that all of us had together.. it will be deeply etched in my memories alwaes.. think i will stop here ba.. going out soon.. shall blog again another time ba.. flying off!!! =)

2007-06-10T08:38:00.000+08:00

2 more days to POP!!!

woots.. 2 more days to POP liao le.. in case u dun understand, POP means Passing Out Parade.. its means that i have completed basic military training and can move on to the next stage of army life.. hahax.. finally after 2 long months i can feel POP within my grasp liao le.. hahax..

on friday, i completed the 24km route march.. which is the graduation route march that everyone has to go thru before passing out of BMT.. and i am realli proud to announce that i have completed the 24km route march.. the route march was a very very painful and tough one.. walking 24km with Full Battle Order weighing bout 20 plus kg.. but realli glad most of us in the platoon made it thru together.. shiok.. wahahax..

no longer the fear of OOt liao le.. hahax.. my pc said since i had good attendance for most of the activities, there is no reason why i should OOT.. hahax.. great.. no need to fear anything liao le.. juz do my best for the rest of the 2 days in BMT.. gonna party on monday night.. hahax..

think i will stop here ba.. blog again after my POP.. block leave is coming lo!!! damn damn shiok.. wahahax.. later going out.. hahax.. take care all my frends.. cya soon! flying off!!!

2007-06-02T18:05:00.000+08:00

zZzZz....

such a "great" week sia.. haizZz.. so much things happened this week sia.. very very hectic and a very very tiring week.. so tired sia.. despite the fact that i had the vesak day break, i dunno why i feel so weak.. so drained out.. izzit becos of the 16km route march this tuesday??? or izzit the ippt which i failed today??? i dunno leh..

haizZz.. feel so helpless this week man.. realli helpless.. been thinking about alot alot of things.. alot alot of things on my mind right now.. so many things for mi to consider right now.. so many things for mi to do right now.. i feel so powerless.. feel so weak.. feel that i dun have the ability to accomplish wat i wanna do sia.. this feeling sux man.. haizZz..

there are so many things which i dunno how to handle at all.. it has been a tough and demanding week sia.. so many things happened.. so much failures has occured to mi.. and i dun think i can take the stress.. and i realli start to doubt myself liao le.. doubt the fact whether i can face more failures in the future.. haizZz.. wat should i do??? can someone give mi an ans??? i dun think so ba.. cauz onli i can unlock the lock which i have secured on myself..

i start to dislike myself once again liao le.. i reverting back to my old self again liao le.. that insensitive and straight forward bastard going ard and kao bei ppl.. haizZz.. guess is high time i wake myself up liao le.. zheng xiang arh.. dun turn back into someone which everyone loathes and hates.. wake up man wake up man.. arghhhhh!!!

haizZz.. dun think i should write anymore ba.. think i should go figure out my thoughts liao le.. end here ba.. flying off..

will anyone understand the pain in mi???

2007-05-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

haizZz

back at home liao le.. cauz vesak day.. get to book out yesterday night.. woots.. but the book out isn't so great afterall.. have to book in again tonight liao le.. and now coughing and having a bad bad bad flu sia.. and i endured thru the 16km route march with the flu and cough.. painful experience.. plus the skin on my palm came off liao during SOC yesterday.. haizZz.. juz suxs..

this coming saturday ippt liao le.. dun think can pass in the first place.. now the more i think i cannot pass liao le.. sick and extremely painful hand.. cannot run cannot pull up.. sianzZz.. haizZz.. heck care la.. since i not aimming for command skl..

last night went clementi to find zhen lin, vincent, hock yong, anna, jing shi and wei xia after my book out.. cauz vin ask mi play pool.. budden onli get to play one game cauz i book out very late and can onli meet them round 11.. after that jiu went home liao le..

haizZz.. thanks to my stupid mouth, said something wrong again liao le.. haizZz.. nv think about others de feeling.. so insensitive of mi.. haizZz.. noe is my fault.. cauz is i say de.. haizZz.. dunno wat to do also.. haizZz.. my must i say the wrong things at the wrong time??? haizZz.. why din i care bout other's de feelings??? i think i deserved to be scolded sia.. haizZz.. sorry worx anna.. sorry i din cared about ur feelings.. forgive mi ok??? promise no more next time liao le worx.. sorry sorry!

haizZz.. think i will stop here ba.. no mood to carry on liao le.. think going rest liao.. taking medicine later.. flying off..

2007-05-27T12:05:00.000+08:00

back from SITEST...

finally released from the tekong prison and now back to civilisation once again.. it has been a hell of a week.. very very very hectic and tiring.. all the activities came one after another this week.. had grenade live throw which i threw a blind.. haizZz.. then came sitest.. woots..

sitest was completely tiring.. crazy in fact.. had 12km route march to the camp site and started learning new things to help us in our mission.. but the fast march every morning is like crazy la.. lol.. nonetheless sitest was fun for mi.. many new things that are useful i have learnt.. there wasn't much of stress cauz i wasn't aimming for command skl liao le..

recently has been thinking about alot alot of things.. about my life and about myself.. i am planning to retake As.. hahax.. dunno why suddenly have this plan.. but i think i started to think more about my future liao le.. thats was partly why i gave up the idea of going command skl.. i think this 2 yrs is time for mi to think bout my life liao le.. wat i realli realli want in my life.. and its realli time to do it liao le..

last night i had somehow a debate with my section mate charles.. toking about things happening in army.. and him telling mi about my negative parts.. wat he said i already knew.. cauz i had close confidants telling mi bout that liao le.. but i guess he knew mi onli for a short time.. he cannot understand mi at all.. and i am not ready to say things bout myself..

yes.. ppl should be optimistic.. we should change our mindset.. but at the end of the day, nothing can be changed instantaneously.. time is the crucial factor in this game.. and i guess its also the ppl.. somehow some ppl i can connect immediately and open up to them.. but that is onli a few onli.. my section mate is helpful.. but he is giving too much.. we are humans afterall.. we are not immortal.. we are not all mighty.. there are some things that are realli up to thyself to solve.. others cannot help..

army indeed changes boys to men.. its realli a period of hardship that boys can mature and grow up, starting to think more about their lives and themselves.. to mi army is somehow good.. apart from the crazy training.. hope i can get myself a answer to all my qns soon ba..

i think i will stop here ba.. going out to swim later liao le.. hahax.. a hot hot weather.. shiok to swim.. wahahax.. meeting up with my senior 2LT zi cheng later.. lol.. wahahax.. flying off!!!

2007-05-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

GREAT WEEKEND

this weekend has been a great weekend for mi.. very fun and enjoyed myself very very much.. first time in the week i felt happy in fact.. cauz was realli bothered by my injury and bothered over the fact that i missed field camp.. haizZz.. was feeling bad for the past week..

but on saturday went out with my frends wei xia, hock yong, zhen lin, vincent, anna, jing shi and kwang yee to go sentosa play play.. lol.. it was very very fun.. took the new monotrail to sentosa.. hahax.. first time i take worx.. very fun.. reached there ard noon and started playing volleyball all those.. couldn't go into the water cauz my wound not totally recovered yet..

yesterday keep making fun of vincent and keep on ka jiao-ing him.. hahax.. so fun to "play" with him sia.. hahax.. bury him in the sand and throwing him into the water.. also gave him new hair styles.. LOL.. its realli fun fun fun.. hahax.. shall upload some photos of wat we did to him.. hahax..

poor ika buried to the ground.. LOL.. hahax..

the poor ika kanna throw into the water.. lol.

also did ika and fish hunting close to the evening when we were about to leave sentosa.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. wei xia unleashes the kid in her and hunted keep trying to catch the fishes in the water.. hahax.. she managed to catch a few and also baby squid = baby ika.. lol.. thats why vincent got suaned again.. LOL.

at night went to marina bay to have steamboat.. hahax.. meet carey, yih pei, yih hao and xue pan over there cauz they were early and we are late.. lol.. yesterday din eat much cauz of my knee injury acting suddenly.. but the steamboat was still realli fun.. chat and joked alot together.. hahax.. on the way back home we practically laughed from marina to jurong east.. cauz we started to joke bout vincent again.. lol.. the trip yesterday as great and it realli lifted my spirits..

today went out to celebrate shi hua's bdae.. went for steamboat at marina also.. hahax.. 2 days in a row eating steamboat.. but ok la.. since is bdae celebration.. ate alot today during the steamboat.. its also nice to joke with ah wong and yih hao also.. hahax.. after which we went back to batok to cut the cake.. lol.. here are some of the photos of the bdae girl.. and also the group photo we took..

the bdae girl cutting the cake..

the group photo we took.. hahax..

realli had fun this weekend.. hopefully next book out also so fun.. think i will stop here ba.. super tired liao le.. KO liao le.. think i will blog again another time ba.. flying off!!!

2007-05-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

sianzZz sianzZz sianzZz...

today did nothing much in the morning.. came online for a while then went to polyclinic clean my wound.. waited for a long time to see doctor and clean my wound.. but one good thing is that the doctor said that my wound was nicely stitched and the scar wun be too bad afterall.. phew.. quite a relief..

got back home in the afternoon.. had lunch and online again.. realised there was one msg in my inbox.. its a friendster comment i received from my colleague amanada.. wat she said realli made mi disappointed with myself.. i realised that i have not been asking my frends and colleagues out as i have promised to do so.. ben and reggie also told mi this before.. and i realli cannot give them a good ans..

all i can say is that i have little book out time and most of the time ppl ask mi out instead of i ask ppl out.. i think this is realli an excuse.. its not a good reason.. i din make an effort to ask.. i did not try and i make a conclusion that ppl are busy and will not be free to go out together.. its realli assumptions that i make.. and i am ashamed that i even promised my colleagues i will try to maintain the frendship i have with them when i am not even trying..

i think its realli time i should stop giving myself excuses and realli time to fulfill my promise to my frends liao.. its realli time to do so liao le.. like wat i believe, i think its realli choice.. and i have now made a choice to fulfill my promise.. to all my frends.. sorry i somewhat broke the promise i given u all.. hope u all can forgive mi.. from today onwards, no matter how busy i am, i will make an effort to maintain the frendship i have with u all.. thats a promise and i will not break it ever again..

i think i will stop here ba.. a bit tired le.. going sleep perhaps.. tml gonna book in again liao le.. haizZz.. flying off!!! =)

2007-05-15T12:23:00.000+08:00

ARGHHH!!!!

i have nv been so down in my mood ever since i finished my exams last yr.. feeling so empty and frustrated right now.. and i dunno how to express it out man.. this realli realli sux man.. even as i am writing this post i dunno wat i am trying to say also.. arghh.. this feeling is so disgusting..

why am i so unlucky to be injured at this point of time??? why must i be sent home??? why can't i go thru field camp together with my fellow frends??? this is realli exasperating.. i am nearing to POP liao le.. even if i wun be posted to a good vocation, i still wanna go thru everything in BMT.. now i missed field camp which is the most important part of BMT.. this feeling sux man..

i noe accidents wun be called an accident if we noe when it will happen.. but i realli dunno why it must happen to me.. i cannot go thru all the shyt and hardships with my platoon and bunk mates.. it also means i missed my chance to realli bond and connect with them liao le.. arghhh.. i doubt anyone can understand how i feel.. i keep asking myself why but i can never get an ans..

i might have to recourse.. it doesn't matter.. cauz i still serve the same period of time.. but wat i realli cannot let go is the frendship that i have forged in raven.. i started to bond with my frends.. the thought of the fact that i cannot pass out with my platoon mates juz sux man.. even if i managed to pass out, there will still be this regret that i have not realli completed BMT.. haizZz.. realli feeling so bad right now.. and this is realli a prob i cannot solve.. no matter how hard i try.. haizZz..

i realli wan to tok to someone.. but i dunno who i can tok to.. i dun wanna trouble my frends.. haizZz.. think i juz have to learn to accept reality once again ba.. but the world is cruel.. reality hurts.. flying off......

2007-05-14T16:24:00.001+08:00

ATT C..

sianzZz diao.. i am now attending C.. attending C is for ppl who are realli sick in tekong to be send home to rest.. i am not sick.. but injured.. sianzZz diao.. got to attend C for 5 days.. meaning u will be grounded at home and not allowed to do anything except staying at home.. sianzZz..

the past week has been a easy yet tiring week.. had live range where we got to shoot real ammo.. all we had to do was to wait and wait and wait and wait for out turn to come to shoot.. the shooting took 2 days and i think i managed to pass live range.. and i was looking forward to field camp..

soon field camp came.. and saturday was the first day of field camp.. completely shagged that day.. had 8km route march to our camp site.. then had urban training and built basha in the evening for the night.. the day was extremely tiring.. but managed to get thru it..

second day come.. morning had field PT.. followed by urban training again.. that was when the unfortunate event occured.. when cheonging across a "danger area", i fell down.. i dunno why i fell cauz i cannot feel that i tripped on anything or neither my boots slipped.. i fell flat on the ground and immediately took off my helmet.. to my horror, blood was all over my helmet.. and i am dripping blood.. got a realli deep cut on my chin.. my SIR was stunned.. so were the medics.. cauz i was DRIPPING blood..

was sent to the medical centre for treatment.. budden in the end was sent out to changi hospital for treatment instead.. had 5 stitches.. luckily it was below my chin.. cannot reali be seen.. haizZz.. went back tekong to sleep in bunk.. i was the onli 1 in the whole company sleeping in bunk.. freakishly scared la.. but managed to get thru the night..

booked out and now back at night.. zZz.. cannot do anything sia.. haizZz.. attend C means i miss the whole of field camp liao le.. and i might not be able to pass out of bmt and might have to recourse.. sobs.. why must accidents happen at this point of time??? why why why??? but it cannot be helped ba.. an accident cannot be predicted.. guess i have to accept fate ba.. have to recourse recourse lo.. haizZz.. but realli cannot bare my platoon and bunk mates.. juz got to noe them better nia.. haizZz.. seriously dunno how to describe how i feel now.. haizZz..

think i stop here ba.. dun feel like carrying on liao le.. if got mood blog again next time ba.. gtg le.. feeling sleepy.. flying off......

2007-05-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

woots.. it has been hell of a week.. finally book out liao yesterday.. budden the anticipation towards book out has been lessened.. dunno why.. seem to be like juz another book out liao le.. haizZz.. maybe realli getting used to the monotonous life in army liao le.. so feeling nothing much..

but i still had fun during these 2 days of book out.. yesterday went out with my colleagues anna, vincent, melvin, zhen lin and jing shi to walk walk have dinner and play pool.. hahax.. sianzZz sia.. cut my hair before book out.. anna and vincent laughed like hell when they saw my extremely short hair.. sobs.. haizZz.. nvm ba.. used to being botak liao.. wahahax..

then today went causeway watch spiderman 3 with wei xia, vincent and jing shi.. finally.. watch spiderman 3 liao le.. hahax.. the movie was good.. nice.. and some phrases in the ending realli caught mi.. cauz those are realli my convictions and beliefs in life.. after the movie met anna and kwang yee and went ichiban grab a bite.. then went off to meet my mum and sis for dinner..

this 2 days was fun and meaning.. and realli realli start to appreciate everyone ard mi liao le.. all my frends and my family.. hardly got the time to realli go out with them liao le.. simply too little time and freedom liao le.. and i hardly think these days liao le.. juz following orders all the while.. thats why had a rough time last night when chatting with my junior xun kai.. guess its realli time to start thinking again liao le.. wahahax..

i dunno leh.. i realli feel helpless recently.. many things i wanna do.. many things i hope to do.. frendships i wanna maintain.. relationships with ppl i wanna secure.. but i am realli helpless.. i realli dun have enough time to do wat i yearn to do.. but i wun give up trying.. cauz giving up on something is the last thing i would ever do in my life.. cauz everyone have a choice in their life.. i will definitely try my very best to maintain the frendship i have.. i will..

think i will stop here ba.. somehow dunno wat i am blabbering about liao.. hahax.. have to stop writing crap.. hahax.. will onli be back in 2 weeks time.. going field camp liao le.. confinement in tekong again.. sianzZz.. but i will pull thru.. blog again in 2 weeks time.. flying off!

2007-05-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

1st book in.....

sianzZz.. booking in in a few hours time liao.. haizZz.. back to tekong "chalet" liao le.. hahax.. i am so "excited" sia.. can anyone feel my excitement??? zZz.. sianzZz diaozZz.. the thought of having to go back tekong will onli drive one nuts man.. tekong juz sux.. gonna be taken away from civilisation for another 3 to 4 days time liao le.. one word to describe: sianzZz..

haven pack my bag yet.. have to go pack liao le.. so many things to bring back to camp.. think my shoulder is going to break when i reach tekong sia.. haizZz.. tekong juz sux man.. haizZz.. sia la.. onli went in for 3 weeks feel this way liao le.. how to survive the rest of the time??? sianzZz..

ending here liao ba.. back for more boring update in my next book out.. which seems a long long long way away sia.. zZz.. flying off.....

2007-04-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

thought i would have to rot my precious book out day today le.. budden in the end din.. wahahax.. it turned out to be a good day instead.. lol.. went to buy some army stuffs in the afternoon.. then met anna and vincent to go for dinner.. hahax..

actually wanted to ask them out de.. but thought they wun be free today.. hahax.. so decided to abort the idea.. hahax.. vincent called mi and asked mi whether i wanted to go dinner.. hahax.. so decided to meet them cauz i got nothing much to do also.. wahahax..

went westmall to get some ziplock bags from the army shop over there.. sianzZz.. regretted not buying at beach road on saturday.. sianzZz.. met anna at westmall in which we took train to boon lay to met vincent.. go sakae.. wahahax.. 3rd time i eating sakae on my book out days liao worx.. wahahax..

met my ex manager irene there.. hahax.. good to see familiar faces once again after so long.. and its nice to be going out with my colleagues after so long.. chatting and playing with them.. stealing away vincent's handphone and suaning him.. hahax.. its juz great that they are willing to take time off to meet up today.. and i realli enjoyed myself alot today.. catching up with frends and joking ard.. its juz a bliss..

like anna said on her blog.. i also missed the times when we all go out in big groups to go for dinner or juz go out play.. everyone is busy with their own things.. be it studies or work.. whereas i'm in army.. hardly got the time to go out with everyone liao.. realli miss the times sia.. dunno when have to opportunity to meet up in big groups again liao le.. haizZz.. hopefully got chance ba..

tml gotta book in again liao.. sianzZz.. happy times are juz so so so short.. so fast going back to tekong liao.. the place without life.. haizZz.. now onli looking forward to the next book out.. hahax.. when i haven even book in yet.. LOL! think i will end here ba.. very tired liao le.. flying off!!!

2007-04-30T11:35:00.000+08:00

sianzZz

haizZz.. cannot believe wat i am doing on my precious book out days.. rotting at home sia.. yucks.. yesterday all i did was to rot at home and use the com for the day.. and eating non stop.. omg.. i wasted one good day liao le.. today also dunno wat to do sia.. dun wanna waste another precious book out day liao le..

erm.. having this funny feeling going thru my mind right now.. i want to ask my frends to go chill out and go out have fun.. budden realli dunno who to ask.. how to ask sia.. my mind is like totally blank.. dunno wat i am thinking about sia.. haizZz.. this suxs man.. my whole brain is realli empty right now.. dun wanna think about anything sia..

dunno why is this happening to mi.. haizZz.. hope i can recover from this "illness" soon ba.. gtg le.. going buy some stuffs for next book in later.. flying off..

2007-04-29T13:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out finally during my very first book out.. hahax.. long long time nv go out walk ard civilian world liao le.. hahax.. the feeling is juz great.. hahax.. went beach road in the afternoon with my senior zi cheng to get some stuff i need for army.. sianzZz sia.. waste money cauz apparently dun have time to go e-mart get the items.. haizZz.. no choice lo.. have to waste money..

rotted at home using the computer for the whole afternoon.. its realli a blessing to juz sit down in front of my com doing nothing.. and its juz great to be at home.. the comfort the everything.. computer and music.. hahax..

in the evening went to westmall eat sakae.. apparently its becos its ben's last day and he asked mi to go support him.. so asked jing shi vincent and zhen lin to go along.. hahax.. reached there ard 7 plus and luckily we were early.. queue wasn't so long.. hahax.. good to see so many familiar faces after so long.. hahax.. missed so many of them.. then went play pool for a while and went back to sakae at night to look for them.. hahax..

dunno leh.. feel very weird liao le.. feel somewhat different liao le.. like drifted away from my frends liao le.. dunno leh.. maybe i'm thinking too much.. dunno leh.. feel realli so so different liao le.. dunno wat to say and dunno wat to tok about liao le.. realli dunno leh.. haizZz.. its juz 17 days of confinement and i start to feel this way liao le.. how am i going to survive the next 2 yrs??? dunno la.. hope i am realli thinking too much ba..

think i will stop here ba.. dunno wat to write liao le.. hahax.. army makes a guy lose his ability to think.. i realli understand why liao le.. hahax.. might be going out later also.. flying off...

2007-04-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back!!!

10th may.. enlisted.. took the oath.. became a soldier.. hahax.. now a full time NSF.. woots.. army life has been such a great transition in my life man.. such a great change.. its never easy to accept the fact that i am no longer a civilian.. hahax.. budden i am proud to say that i have adapted to this transition in my life..

NS is nv something easy.. i nv thought it is so tough.. took quite some time to realli get into the motion of things after my enlistment.. i nv knew we have to march alwaes from one location to another.. to be hearing commands that are totally alien to mi.. and also doing physical training every single day.. it was realli hard to adapt.. especially when u are so far away from ur loved ones and ur frends..

my bunk is a special bunk.. we have got the sea view everyday.. and i can see the sunset every single day.. can also see lots of stars in the night.. hahax.. its totally beautiful.. and i loved it.. budden it also bring about chains of thoughts for mi every single day.. missing all my frends and especially my family.. and making mi think of so many things everyday.. hahax.. in which all my platoon mates say i'm emo-ing.. lol.. budden i still appreciate the beautiful scenary i get to see everyday..

but realli start to adapt after the first week.. and when i got to noe my section mates better.. got lots of support from some of them.. grateful to have them ard.. learnt alot during this 3 weeks of confinement too.. learn to endure and learnt to face obstacles with courage and dun fear to fail.. cannot believe wat i have done for the past 17 days.. hahax.. completing 6km route march with uber heavy field pack and lbv.. clearing obstacle courses which i could nv do in the past at all.. hahax.. endurance and mental strength is realli the key.. hahax..

today finally book out after 17 days.. hahax.. finally can come home liao le.. missed home and my frends so much.. hahax.. went to my work place to takeaway food.. hahax.. 2 of my colleagues couldn't recognise mi.. lol.. hahax.. turned realli tanned and cannot recognise mi easily.. budden its a great feeling seeing so many of them after so long.. and so great to be back home right now..

gonna book in again next tuesday.. sianzZz.. budden still taking it positively.. its a chance to learn more new things and get to noe my platoon mates better.. hahax.. hope i can get all the best from bmt.. hahax.. like my platoon sgt said.. pain is temporary.. pride is forever.. hahahax.. think i will end here ba.. flying off!!!

2007-04-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

Last post as a civilian...

sianzZz diao.. i'm like enlisting in like 17 hrs later??? LOL! wahahax.. no realli looking forward to it cauz there are so many things i have not done yet worx.. sianzZz diao.. but i am prepared for the challenge ahead liao.. finally able to let go of the things bothering mi for quite some time liao le.. and there is nothing drawing mi back from army liao le..

think i will take army as a opportunity to noe new ppl and to realli grow up ba.. its realli a once in a lifetime experience for every guy.. from a boy to man.. think it is realli a learning journey for mi in the 2 yrs to come..

here like to take this opportunity to thank all my frends for giving mi such a wonderful memory before i go NS.. especially to my colleagues.. thanks for all the fun i had working and hanging out with u guys.. my life before NS wun have been so colourful without u guys.. i realli had great fun going out with u all and i will bring the memories i have with u guys deeply etched at the bottom of my heart.. take lots of care ppl!!!

also wanna take this opportunity to thank my bro joel, my junior xun kai and my senior zi cheng for all the advices and help they have given mi whenever i have problems and whenever i am troubled.. thank you guys.. buddies forever..

and to all my juniors i wish u ppl luck in ur studies no matter where and where u guys are now and hope everyone of them are doing well and coping well for their studies.. all the best for As to all my juniors in JJ.. hahax.. to everyone of my frends, i hope everyone will take lots of care and may all the best in everything u guys do..

signing off for the last time as a civilian, take care all my frends!!! and also may smooth sailing in everything for my family.. hope to see everyone soon after my bmt.. hahax.. flying off!!! =)

2007-04-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

看着缓缓落下的夕阳，
我的心开始暗了下来。
和朋友们一起走过的美好回忆，
仍然在我脑海里记忆犹新，
不停地在荡漾着，
不停地盘旋着。

但如今就要失去了自由，
我才学会如何真正的珍惜。
珍惜我曾拥有的美好的一切。

现实是残酷的，
现实是无情的。
尽管我如何努力地挽留，
感情还是会随着时间流逝。

但我也相信命运是掌控在我手里的。
我有能力改变我的命运。
尽管命运有多么无情，
我还是会努力地尝试，
决不轻言放弃。
这就是我的选择。

suddenly felt like writing something juz now.. so decided to pen down my thoughts for the past one or 2 weeks.. wat i wrote above is realli some thoughts before i go NS.. my helplessness.. but i still believe i can change my fate cauz i noe destiny is in my hands.. its my choice whether to do it anot.. hahax.. gtg le.. going bai bai for NS.. flying off!!!

2007-04-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

today was also a good day.. wahahax.. went swimming in the afternoon with my seniors zi cheng and ming fei.. wahahax.. reached JE swimming pool ard 2.45 liddat.. ming fei reached also ard the same time.. zi cheng was already at KFC.. lol.. i and ming fei were lucky cauz a extremely heavy downpour started right after we stepped into the sports complex..

there was thunder and lightning.. so no choice but to wait in kfc for the rain to stop.. in the meantime playing with zi cheng's i-mac.. wahahax.. hahax.. tok cock sing song and listen to music until the rain subsided and we could go swim.. lol..

swam for like 2 plus hours.. wahahax.. i was juz playing ard cauz the weather was so poor and no mood to go swim.. lol.. most of the time the 3 of us were toking cock about army and stuffs liddat.. wahahax.. and also many funny funny de things.. hahax.. so fun de.. the times i spent with my seniors is alwaes fun.. hahax.. cauz we nv fail to crack funny jokes and say funny stuffs when we are out together.. lol..

went to wash up and was deciding where to go for dinner.. wanted to go town but i very sianzZz.. so in the end decided to go sakae to eat cauz my senior ming fei wanted to have sushi cauz he is craving for sushi cauz he juz came back from taiwan for his training.. lol.. so went westmall makan.. hahax.. ate alot.. but in the end paid very little.. thanks to kwang yee.. hahax.. thanks har ky.. wahahax..

after dinner went CSC play pool again.. uper on form.. wahahax.. won many games today.. damn shiok la the feeling.. wahahax.. after which zi cheng and ming fei went back home and i went find my ex colleagues to go back home together..

i had a great day.. hahax.. lots of fun today.. alwaes so fun to go out with my seniors.. nv fail to have fun everytime i go out with them.. wahahax.. appreciate the times i spent with them tons.. lol.. but on the way back on the train was thinking of some things.. bothering mi again.. but think should be fine soon ba.. hopefully.. wahahax.. but i still had a fantastic day today.. lol..

think i will end here ba.. gtg le.. tml going si ma lu bai bai.. for army ba.. alwaes go bai bai before anything major events for mi de.. hahax.. flying off!!!

2007-04-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

great day

today i had a great day.. rotted in the afternoon then went to find my junior xun kai at his place.. hahax.. went swimming at the swimming pool at his place and also played table tennis there.. wahahax.. fun.. long time no play table tennis liao le.. after that went to makan at a coffee shop and went play badminton..

after badminton went bukit panjang plaza to go have supper.. my treat.. lol.. had mac.. chatted with him for a long long long time.. hahax.. we alwaes do so after badminton last time.. great to be able to juz chat with him cauz everytime i chat with him there will be things i realise and realli appreicate..

the things we do is alwaes so simple.. so common.. play sports and stuffs.. then chat.. but i realli appreciate the time i spent with this very special junior of mine.. and chatting with him alwaes relieve mi of the many problems i have.. its realli by chance we met at orientation.. would nv have met him if i din join ogl.. and realli din regret my choice of joining ogl..

this post is realli dedicated to this junior of mine.. realli cannot thank him enough for being there for mi all the time when i needed someone to juz listen.. and toking to him alwaes gives mi lots of surprises and i also learnt alot from him.. he is so mature compared to mi being older than him..

today while toking to him, he told mi to not think bout the worries i have.. bout my frends and stuffs.. bout worrying i might drift away from them.. wat he told mi is so true.. and i realise a fact in life.. nothing is forever in life.. life is ever changing and nothing will remain the same forever.. the many special moments in life will realli turn into memories that will follow us forever.. and that is realli the things we should appreicate in life.. and i will rmb all the special moments i had as eternal memory..

realli feel so good juz being with my junior.. he juz a great great frend.. a great confidant.. realli will like to take this opportunity to thank him for all he had done since the time i known him.. thanks so much xun kai.. hopefully army wun drift us apart.. and will make our frendship stronger.. like he said.. army is realli a test of frendship and i will see who my true frends are.. u are forever my greatest pal!!!

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. tml should be going out with my senior zi cheng.. lol.. flying off!!! =)

2007-04-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

lol.. today was a tiring day.. early in the morning jiu wake up liao le.. cauz got bai bai at home.. qing ming jie.. have to bai zu xian.. ya.. plus last night sleep very very late.. thats why so tired and slept when my elders were praying.. very bad.. think next time should juz sleep earlier liao le.. and have to train to wake up early liao.. 4 more days to NS le..

after bai bai went market buy army de stuffs.. bought quite a lot of stuffs for army.. hahax.. slacked at home when mel called mi and wanted to come my home with ben.. hahax.. so met them at teck whye lrt station there de basketball court cauz i suggested to play bball.. but in the end still went my home to play com.. wahahax..

after that ben went to find his frend while melvin accompanied mi to jp to find a cap.. sianzZz.. in the end decided not to buy one.. cauz apparently my head too too big liao le.. cannot fit any of the caps and i looked ugly in them.. hahax.. so abolished the idea of buying a cap.. wahahax.. melvin bought a bball shorts instead.. lol..

after that went westmall to buy some stuffs i need for NS also.. sianzZz.. some stuffs.. hahax.. so pai sei la.. hahax.. sianzZz diao worx.. thanks mel for accompanying mi worx.. hahax.. then went back sakae to visit our colleagues.. hahax.. chatted with them for a while then went back home liao le.. then on the way back my jie ka jiao mi and asked mi wat i bought.. sianzZz.. so funny la.. think those on the train noe wat i mean.. wahahax.. dun wanna mention here.. lol.. thanks har jie.. wahahax..

saw something on melvin's blog.. so bad.. i sure will slim down de lo.. lol.. slim until u cannot recognise.. wahahax.. but realli hope we can keep in contact during my NS period also.. hahax.. dun wanna lose contact with u guys.. hahax.. take care worx everyone in sakae.. hahax.. think i will end here ba.. my posts getting boring day by day.. time to think of interesting stuffs to write liao le.. hahax.. so can entertain u guys reading.. wahahax.. gtg.. flying off..

2007-04-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

back to JJ

after so long, went back to jj once again.. hahax.. the feeling is great.. hahax.. after such a long time i have not been back in skl, i realli miss the times in skl.. hahax.. sitting down and crapping with frends.. its juz so great.. jj is juz cool.. wahahax.. all the wonderful memories i have there.. hahax..

today went back to visit my juniors in cldds.. hahax.. nice to see them.. last time keep saying that i wanted to visit them after exams but din cauz was too occupied with work liao le.. today finally got the time to go fulfill my promise.. hahax.. reached skl and asked xun kai to meet mi at the gate so saved the trouble with the security guard.. but the guard was nice cauz noe him quite well liao le.. hahax..

toked cock with xun kai and his frend for a while then went to see cldds.. hahax.. cannot realli tok to my juniors cauz they were busy discussing about syf stuffs.. so stayed outside the room and met my junior jayne and started toking crap with her.. hahax.. toked for quite long worx.. bullying her.. wahahax.. but it was realli nice chatting with the juniors i noe after so long.. hahax.. so great..

walked ard the skl together with xun kai.. saw many many familiar faces and ppl.. hahax.. and ppl keep saying i slimmed down a lot a lot.. damn shiok la.. hahax.. hopefully can slim down more after BMT.. hahax.. onli got to tok abit with my cldds juniors after their cca.. think today went the worng day liao.. cauz they busy with stuffs.. but still good to be able to see them.. hahax..

after that rotted in skl with xun kai.. toked to his juniors also.. hahax.. rotted for quite some time in skl then went back liao le.. xun kai went back home while i went to buy things i needed for army.. starting to prepare liao le.. hahax.. spending quite a lot of money also.. lucky my dad gave mi allowance to buy my army stuffs.. hahax.. thanks dad..

its simply great to visit skl today.. juz simply toking to my juniors and chatting with them makes my day.. cauz i would be too busy in army to do so any time soon liao le.. so its realli a blessing i took time off to go back skl today.. realli realli treasure the times i spent in skl today.. every second toking to my juniors.. its juz great.. think no words can describe how i feel ba..

think i will stop here ba.. tml got things on at home.. so not going out.. but have to continue to get ready my things for ns.. hahax.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

2007-04-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

fun fun fun..

these few days have been fun fun fun for mi.. hahax.. hahax.. monday went to my bro joel's home to pass him his bdae present.. lol.. played at his house for the whole day.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. also had lots of fun cauz of joel's cute dog terry.. hahax.. super duper cute.. stick to mi the whole day also.. trying to grab attention also.. make mi sayang him.. wahahax.. uper cute worx.. shall upload some photos worx..

terry.. hahax..

that day played X box at his home for the whole day.. played DOA and also Halo 2.. wahahax.. quite fun.. hahax.. also had dinner over at his place.. his parents were so nice to have bought food for mi.. hahax..

then yesterday went out with zhen lin, wei xia, vincent and melvin.. hahax.. went back to sakae to have buffet.. hahax.. met many of my ex colleagues there.. lol.. so fun playing ard with them also.. but guess choose the wrong day liao le.. cauz not everyone.. but i still had fun.. hahax.. ate alot.. until my whole stomach super duper full.. hahax.. anna and jing shi also drew some funny funny pics.. i and vincent added stuffs also.. wahahax.. upload here.. wahahax..

hahax.. super cute worx.. lol..

ika, salmon head, fried tofu, ebi, hotate, kani and idako.. lol.. cute..

after the buffet went pool with lin xia and vincent.. melvin went play badminton with his frends.. hahax.. played ard 2 plus hours.. then lin xia and vincent went home liao.. went back to sakae to visit my ex colleagues again. can go home together with reggie also.. hahax.. helped xue pan with menu then everything done liao le.. had supper with reggie and anna at mac and then went back with reggie..

back at sakae reggie asked mi why i she bu de leave sakae.. i realli dunno how to ans his qn.. dunno leh.. i realli she bu de.. maybe its juz in mi ba.. cannot let go of the frends i noe.. even if i onli noe them for a very short period of time.. i'm this kind of person ba.. its in mi.. hahax.. thats why army suxs for mi.. and i had been feeling quite down recently having to be drifting away from my frends after i go NS.. hahax.. but let nature take its course ba.. i'm sure everything will be fine.. hahax..

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. later going back skl visit my cca juniors.. hahax.. last time alwaes say will visit them but din.. hahax.. today must go back and visit them.. lol.. think will be fun.. ending here le.. flying off!!! =)

2007-04-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

tired...

today was a super super hectic day for mi.. woke up ard 12 plus in the afternoon.. cauz last night slept very late.. ard 4 plus in the morning.. cauz was chatting with my junior on the phone for the night.. so good to be toking to him after so long.. hahax.. felt better toking to him also.. cauz he alwaes seem to be able to give mi extra sensible advices.. hahax..

went bai bai today.. cauz qing ming jie.. went sao mu for my grandparents.. once in a yr onli.. so it was an important event.. had lunch at my aunt's place today.. then head off to sao mu.. there was a great traffic jam.. so took a long time to reach.. then somehow halfway thru heard my uncle and aunt had a great quarrel.. to an extend my uncle headed back home.. but somehow he came back in the end..

i realli cannot understand adults.. they can be grumbling at every single thing.. though i dun noe wat realli happened, but i heard from my sis it started from something so lame.. i realli cannot understand why adults like to quarrel over trivial stuffs.. haizZz.. and i also cannot help in any way.. can onli keep quiet.. cauz i noe my elders can nv listen to wat i say de.. they think they are forever right.. thats my family.. still did sao mu.. went sao mu for my grandma after we finish bai bai at my grandpa place..

that was the time i broke down liao le.. realli emotional broke down.. tears flowed down my face when we were finished and my dad ask mi to pray to my grandma to bless mi for my NS.. i broke down totally.. i missed my grandma so so so much.. she was the one who doted on mi the most all the time.. and listened to wat i say.. rmbing her saying she wanted to see mi thru NS.. but now she can't liao le.. i simply dunno how to describe how i feel.. i realli miss her so so so much.. but in the end i picked myself up and stopped crying.. cauz i noe this is life..

haizZz.. thinking over these few days bout my life when i go in NS.. and whenever i think bout such things nothing comes out of it.. hahax.. realli feel helpless.. quite difficult for mi to accept the fact that i am going to drift apart from my frends.. cauz no time to contact them.. my colleagues.. my study buddies.. my og frends.. my senior..my junior.. my best pals.. this feeling totally sux.. especially my colleagues.. so difficult to accept the fact that i will not be that close to them liao le.. cauz juz started to get to noe them better and i left them already.. this sux.. hate this..

but wat my junior told mi last night realli made mi feel better.. and i think its realli life.. this is inevitable for a guy in his life.. and he told mi life is onli meaningful when we lose something.. its true.. but to mi i also think ppl onli learn to appreciate things in life when they are going to lose something.. i realli deeply understand this fact.. but juz this is also another chance to learn something ba.. learning to let go and move on.. nonetheless i will try my very best to hold on to the frendship i have with all my frends..

think i will end here ba.. tml going to try meet my bro joel to give him his bdae present.. lol.. hahax.. gtg le.. very very tired now liao le.. juz like the title.. wat a day.. flying off..

2007-03-31T13:05:00.000+08:00

a song my junior juz sent mi.. very nice.. Last request by Paolo Nutini..

here's the lyrics..

Slow down, lie down, remember it's just you and me
Don't sell out, bow out, remember how this used to be
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me

Now I've found, that I'm bound, to wander down that one-way road
And I realise all about your lies, but I'm no wiser than the fool that I was before
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me

Baby, baby, baby, tell me how can, how can this be wrong?
Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me
One last time let's go there, lay down beside me

2007-03-31T12:10:00.000+08:00

OMG.....

haizZz.. onli 10 days left till NS liao le.. this feeling sux.. realli realli sux man.. from last night thinking till today.. there are so many things i haven accomplish yet.. and there are so many things i wanna do before NS.. but time is realli running out for mi.. i can hardly do anything in this short ten days..

but i think i will look on a brighter side.. 10 days.. seems short.. but there is still time.. better than nothing.. now that i am free from my job, i can realli get down to plan stuffs and outings.. there are so many ppl i wanna meet.. it has been so long so long since i have met some of my frends liao le.. realli miss them so much..

yesterday went for dinner with my study buddies liao le.. hahax.. so great.. at least i managed to meet a group of great pals i realli wanted to meet.. there are still so many frends i wanna catch up with.. think its time i take a step and go plan outings already..

1) outing with my very own og 28.. miss everyone of them to bits..
2) go out with my sec skl buddies joel and dinesh..
3) meet up with my best best junior xun kai..
4) chill out with my senior zi cheng
5) catch up with zhen lin, wei xia and vincent they all..
6) visit my colleagues at westmall..
7) have dinner with my family..

haiyo.. so many things to do.. need to prepare my buddy de bdae present also.. hahax.. some other things also.. haiyo.. sianzZz.. time is running out!!! hope i can finish wat i wanna do before NS.. hope i realli do.. think gtg le.. have to go apply for teacher liao le.. and might be going swimming later with joel.. flying off!!!

2007-03-31T01:45:00.000+08:00

woohoo..

2 straight days going out.. hahax.. thursday went for bbq at my colleague ky house.. lol.. the bbq was still alrights.. juz that atmosphere wasn't right.. aiya.. dunno la.. was moody during the bbq.. thinking bout lots of stuffs.. din play much also.. hahax.. so bad.. din go and have fun with my colleagues..

after the bbq tonned at ky place for the night.. watched dead or alive the movie.. super stupid movie.. lame de.. fight from the start till the end.. no plot de.. lol.. then after the movie reggie, melvin, kwang yee and shi hua fell asleep.. onli left mi zhen lin and vincent awake.. hahax.. chatted the whole night and played cards to entertain ourselves the whole night.. hahax.. its so nice toking and chatting with them.. realli feel there is a connection there with them..

in the morning went play bball at ky house there de bball court.. fun but reggie got injured.. but ok le.. then sent reggie off cauz he going SP.. actually going with him de but his frend going with him so decided not to go.. hahax.. actually wanted to go back liao le budden in the end jumped into the swimming pool and swam for a while.. wahahax.. after that went boon lay have breakfast with xia and go home liao..

yesterday sleep for like 4 plus hours when i reached home.. then woke up and prepare to go out again with my jc study buddies.. actually nazi and bin hao coming de.. but nazi mum got sick and bin hao decided to ps us.. sianzZz.. so onli mi, yvonne and hao chun met up.. lol..

went town to find yvonne cauz she at taka.. reached there le but in the end cannot find her.. lol.. so retarded.. kept making calls to find where she is.. hahax.. in the end still found her.. there was a sudden change of plans and in the end we decided to go suntec makan.. met hao chun at city hall mrt.. hahax..

so went makan at suntec city.. went secret recipe for dinner.. hahax.. the food was nice.. not bad.. i had grilled chicken rice and a choc cheese cake.. uper nice the cheese cake.. hao chun had stewed lamb and von had fish and chips.. chatted during the dinner and it was so fun.. long time no chat with them le.. hahax.. realli like the past during study period.. hahax.. after the dinner we decided to go visit nazi at her place.. lol.. bought her a white choc cake from secret recipe.. lol..

chatted alot with them in the night.. it was so so so good.. the feeling is simply great.. like last time we used to be chatting in skl.. hahax.. so fun.. shared my troubles with them and i realli felt so so so good.. relieved in fact.. with my frends listening to my troubles and i seem to be relieved a bit of my burden.. hahax.. thanks guys for making my day.. hopefully still got chance to go out have fun again after my bmt.. hahax..

its like 10 days till my NS liao le.. still got so many many things i have not completed.. and so many things i have not learnt how to let go.. sianzZz.. hate this feeling.. it sucks..army means my freedom, my time and my frends.. realli dun wish to lose any of my frendships.. haizZz.. i hope i wun.. cauz i will try my best to hold on tight.. and i think i have to realli try to let go of things before i go NS.. sianzZz.. hopefully i can..

life is not about the number of breaths we take, but the moments which take our breaths away.. realli glad i have so many memorable times with my frends..hope i will keep in contact with them still.. think i will end here ba.. very very tired.. flying off!!!

学会了放手，才能够得到真正的自由...

2007-03-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

Goodbye Sakae..

today is my last day in sakae liao le.. very last day le.. it marks the end of my stay in sakae westmall le.. lots of emotions going thru mi.. having mixed feelings today when i left.. hahax.. happy that i no longer have to shou qi anymore.. but realli sad to be leaving my bunch of super great colleagues..

dunno how to say leh.. joined as a promoter in dec.. then decided to stay in service crew.. many a times i wanted to quit and resign.. cauz realli hate the job.. getting scolded and yelled at for nothing most of the time.. but its realli the bunch of great colleagues i have that kept mi going.. realli forged so many great friendship in my stay in sakae..

actually din expect to make so many frends de.. cauz its still a job and i thought ppl will realli be like juz colleagues.. but wat i experienced is totally different from wat i reckon to be.. i realli made a great bunch of frends in sakae.. we are a united team of ppl.. and alwaes go out have fun also.. lol.. had lots of memories in sakae.. most of it are good ones and becos of my colleagues.. the fun and joy i had spending my time with them is realli limitless.. lol..

realli lots of ups and downs in my course of work.. results and lots of probs troubling mi.. but whenever i go out with my colleagues, i can forget bout the troubles i had for the time being and have fun with them.. realli realli grateful to have known everyone in sakae westmall..

here would realli like to take this opportunity to thank all my colleagues i worked with.. melvin, reggie, ben, linda, xue pan, jing shi, amanda, anna, shi hua, kwang yee, caseline, agnes, hock yong, wei xia, zhen lin, vincent and yih pei.. if u all happen to read this, realli thank you guys for making my stay in sakae a memorable and enjoyable one.. appreciate u guys tons..

realli hope can still keep in contact with everyone.. though it is a difficult task cauz i going NS soon le, but i will still try my best to hold on to the friendships that i have forged with everyone.. thats mi.. hahax.. hope i will not lose any of these friendship with my colleagues.. here wanna thanks everyone in sakae westmall again and hope everyone will take care.. all the best in everything.. i will visit u guys when i am free.. lol.. think i will stop here ba.. if not getting more and more emo.. might cry later.. lol.. flying off!!! =)

2007-03-28T02:02:00.000+08:00

sianzZz.. feeling itchy all over my body.. having rashes.. think i am realli allergic to alcohol ba.. feeling so terrible right now.. hopefully the rashes will subside soon ba.. cannot afford to let my parents noe i drank.. sure kanna till jia liat jia liat.. anyone has any methods can help mi make my rashes subside??? sianzZz..

today registered for uni liao le.. dunno wats the results ba.. still have to complete the application for teacher.. hopefully can finish soon ba.. lol.. then paid for the application fee liao le.. haizZz.. totally broke this month liao le.. no money to spend at all le.. sianzZz.. still got so many outings and dinner to go to.. hahax.. sianzZz..

tml is my very last day at work liao le.. working full tml.. so fast.. my last day le.. it was onli like yesterday when i juz started work.. think shall blog more tml ba.. think ending here liao le.. got important stuffs to do now.. flying off!!!

2007-03-26T14:11:00.000+08:00

back from chalet!!!

hahax.. back from chalet liao le.. it was nice.. lol.. though din have bbq budden it is still great.. had quite a lot of fun at the chalet.. lol.. yesterday supposed to meet at JE at 2pm.. hahax.. in the end turned up late cauz happened to met the rest of them and took train together.. so were late together.. lol..

reached je ard 2 plus.. then took the train to pasir ris.. sianzZz.. it was such a long trip.. hahax.. luckily had jokes going among us that kept us going during the trip.. then took bus at pasir ris to coasta sands resort.. lol.. checked into our chalet which was upgraded cauz the ppl who came yesterday were more than expected.. hahax..

some of them started playing PS2 and the rest strolled ard the chalet.. i joel and wei da decided to rent a bike overnight cauz we actually intended to do night cycling.. but in the end rented 2 bikes cauz wei da was going to go off in the morning and he decided to share with joel.. cycled together with wei da along the beach and it was ard sunset de time liao.. hahax.. took lots and lots of pictures of the sunset.. hahax.. shall upload some here.. lol..

nice scenery..

trees from below.. lol..

nearing sunset..

sun set liao le.. night sky.. so beautiful..

was strolling along the beach and chatting with wei da and joel.. hahax.. joel happened to find a plastic cup.. inside contain 2 jellyfish sia.. wth.. hahax.. someone actually caught the jellyfish and placed them in a plastic cup.. we dig a hole to bury the cup halfway so that the jellyfish can escape when the tide comes.. hahax.. took a picture too..

notice??? the jellyfish is in the cup.. lol

after walking along the beach, went back to the chalet.. ppl there were wei siong, wye huong, chak yong, kent.. they playing PS2 there.. hahax.. somehow we starting chatting bout our life in singapore and the pros and cons in singapore.. it was a very interesting chat among all of us.. first time the ppl in 4/8 discussed bout these kind of stuffs.. hahax.. guessed we all all grew up le.. also started reminisicing bout sec skl days and joking bout the teachers weird gestures.. lol..

mi and joel went to pack dinner for the guys in the chalet at kfc after the long chat cauz we had bikes and it would be very fast.. hahax.. bought 2 party meals and a meal for wee boon.. lol.. cycle all the way to kfc and back.. lol.. having a bike in a chalet is so much convenient.. had dinner and we all carried on playing in the chalet.. also did night cycling with wei siong and joel.. hahax.. night cycling is so so so fun..

its ard midnight we all decided to drink something nice.. hahax.. vodka.. wahahax.. heard wee boon they all bought it.. Absolut vodka.. hahax.. alcohol 40%.. woots.. first time ever in my life i drank.. wahahax.. had ard 4 to 5 cups of vodka mixed with ribena and soda water.. also had ard 2 cups of pure vodka.. sianzZz.. 2 cups of pure 40% worx.. cauz joel offered mi as he kept taking pure ones.. hahax..

cycled together with joel along the beach and drinking as well.. hahax.. got a bit tipsy.. but not drunk.. cauz i am totally conscious of myself and i noe wat i am doing.. hahax.. for a first time its consider quite good le ba.. lol.. budden i think joel had a bit too much liao le.. got drunk.. he felt realli uncomfortable for the night and we all took turns to take care of him.. but he was fine by daybreak..

the liquor we drank.. lol..

in the morning wei da went back first cauz he had skl and the rest of us rotted and stayed till 10 plus to check out.. i and joel went back to the beach again and saw it was low tide.. can see so many things we cannot see during high tide.. nature is juz so amazing.. lol.. we all had breakfast at mac and then took the train back home.. its a long journey again.. everybody slept.. lol..

its was a fun chalet for mi.. could catch up with all my frends i had not seen for so long liao le.. hahax.. had alot of fun.. and could realli forget bout the worries i have for the past few days while playing.. hahax.. its simply great.. and recover some things i had lost in the past.. hahax.. so happy.. it was a great chalet to mi.. lol.. think i will end here ba.. quite tired le.. have to register for uni later i think.. flying off!!! =)

2007-03-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

off to chalet liao le.. hahax.. shall blog on it when i am back.. lol.. flying off!!! take care my frends!!! =)

2007-03-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

haizZz.. was moody for the whole of last night and today.. thinking so so much about wat i have said.. and thinking so much about my personality.. i felt so so so bad.. i realli sux man.. i realli dunno how to face my frends already.. most importantly myself.. am i realli too rigid in my thinking??? am i so inflexible??? i think i realli am..

i hate it.. today i revert back to my old self again.. coping myself up at a corner to think bout stuffs.. realli trying hard to forget wat i did.. though i noe at the back of my mind escapism does not help in solving a problem.. and it realli doesn't help cauz i haven got a answer yet..

i am scared.. i am worried.. i am terrified.. i dun wanna lose an important part of my life anymore.. i realli hate it.. i realli dunno wat to do.. i dunno wat to say also.. thousands of apologies and saying a million times of sorry will nv help.. cauz wat is done is done.. damage is done.. and the scar will forever be there..

wat i can do i have done.. wat i can try to explain i had attempted.. i can onli leave it to fate to decide liao le.. wat will happen is already destined.. i believe in destiny.. but i do hope destiny is kind to mi this time round.. and i hope everything will be fine soon.. think i will end here ba.. going off to chalet tml and the day after.. hahax.. with my sec skl frend.. so looking forward to this chalet.. hahax.. think it will be great fun.. flying off!!!

现实是残酷的。但我相信人是能改变自己的命运的。

2007-03-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

承诺与友情要是只能拥有其中之一，你会选择哪一个？

oh great.. i did something so wrong today.. in fact is said something so wrong today.. omg.. i realli broke my frend's heart.. becos of a promise i made i forgot to acknowledge the frendship between my frends.. i sux totally.. how could i have made such harsh remarks??? out of vexation and frustration??? i dun think thats a good reason also.. omg.. hate it..

i actually told my frend somehow to mind his own business and dun meddle with others' problems.. i broke his heart utterly.. i noe i did.. and its too late liao le.. wat is said has been said.. and i can nv take back wat i have said.. i am that insensitive bastard once again.. it has been a long long time ever since i had said something so hurtful and wrong liao le.. this has been wat i have been avoiding for such a long time.. and yet it happened once again..

i sux totally.. my frend seem to have taken it in his stride and he kept assuring mi he was fine.. but i noe he isn't.. from wat he said before we left home i noe he wasn't.. he said he felt he dun have a place in the group of us since some time back.. and i noe wat i said today sent him down to the bottom of the pit..

hey buddy.. if u happened to see this, though u said u dun wanna read, i wanna apologise once again.. i noe no matter how many times i apologise, it will nv remove this scar i created.. but one thing i wan u to noe is that u may feel that u do not have a place amongst us.. but u definitely have a place in my heart.. u are a frend to mi.. alwaes.. no matter whether u recognise mi as ur frend anot, u will alwaes be my frend in my heart.. cauz u have already made an impact in my life..

to say its realli not ur fault for feeling left out.. its our fault instead for not caring about how u feel.. and i made this mistake today.. i din care about ur feelings.. its my bad.. i'm realli sorry.. hope u forgive mi.. i noe i am irritating cauz i realli dun wanna lose another frend ever anymore.. i have lost too many already.. and i realli dun wan the same thing to happen again.. cause u are realli an important frend to mi.. from the bottom of my heart..

i dunno leh.. i realli hope i can solve this misunderstanding soon ba.. i dun wan wat happened in the past to happen ever again.. i realli dun wanna have regrets anymore.. hopefully a miracle will happen....

2007-03-22T02:08:00.000+08:00

i'm sad.. i'm disappointed.. i dunno wat to say.. wonder whether wat i did was right anot.. haizZz.. once again locking myself in a chamber of thoughts.. think gonna get insommia again tonight.. =(

2007-03-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

woots.. monday after work went sakae buffet with linda.. hahax.. ate yakitori which made mi vomit in the toilet.. zZz.. so better not eat yakitori again in future.. lol.. today also went out.. hahax.. with linda again.. lol.. cauz we all today no work so decided to go out window shopping.. hahax.. cauz at home also nothing better to do..

meet linda at ard 2.30 liddat at yishun mrt.. then go marina square walk walk.. lol.. to look for her passport holder to be specific.. lol.. hahax.. went down especially to the mini toons there to get the passport holder cauz onli its the onli outlet in singapore which still has stock.. hahax.. she bought the passport holder and we carried on window shopping..

had lunch at food court this time cauz going budget cauz the both of us haven been working much this month and its ought to be time to save and scrimp a bit liao.. hahax.. chatted for quite a long time at the food court while waiting for ben ben and shi hua to join us.. hahax.. realised we both have many things in common.. hahax.. in the end she become my "gan jie" liao le.. lol.. very long nv chat for so long le.. hahax..

after that ben ben and shi hua joined us.. carried on with window shopping and ben ben bought one shirt.. hahax.. after that shi hua went for dance class so mi linda and ben ben went for dinner.. shi hua joined us after her dance class but i and linda left home first cauz both of us not feeling very well.. she had a flu and i had sore throat.. must be that yakitori.. lol.. hahax.. so took the train home and rotted and chatted on the phone with my senior.. lol..

tml going work.. hahax.. not going ice skate liao le.. cauz mel mel wanna go.. then 9 ppl le.. so decided not to go.. cauz not feeling very well also.. knee aching and shoulder aching.. cannot afford a fall liao le.. lol.. so decided to go work.. can earn money also.. wahahax.. too little schedule this month liao le.. hahax.. think i will stop here ba.. going sleep liao.. not feeling very well.. flying off!!!

2007-03-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

back to blogging liao le.. it has been quite a week.. tiring yet fun week.. went out with colleagues and stuffs.. enjoyed my week very much.. budden as much as i enjoyed myself, had been moodly at home also.. dun wish to stay at home everyday.. dunno leh.. very very bored at home.. all i can do is to go online and do nothing.. lol.. but more importantly cauz quarrelled with my mum.. haizZz.. hopefully things will be fine soon ba..

onli these few months i have started thinking about life.. seems like i gained enlightenment liddat.. hahax.. realised i have realli changed alot since my jc days.. realli believe that the exams period was a turning point of my life.. meeting my study mates changed mi alot i guess.. and i reckon that that working also made mi a more mature person.. and i'm happy with who i am right now.. nonetheless still striving hard to make myself a better person..

tendered my resignation liao le.. working till the end of march.. 28th will be my very very last day liao le.. its realli goodbye to sakae westmall liao le.. lots of emotions and thoughts thinking of leaving sakae.. lots of memories also.. more to the good ones.. realli think i will miss everyone over there in sakae.. realli forged lots of friendship over there..

army is coming so soon liao le.. a bit chuo shou bu ji.. so many things i have not done yet and so many things i haven accomplish.. so many things i wanna do.. organise outing for my own og, catch up with my study mates.. so many things i wanna do.. and so many questions that i have not answered myself.. arghhh.. army realli deprive ppl of precious time.. yucks..

think i will have to use my time wisely this few weeks liao le.. especially this week.. many things to be completed and done.. cannot afford to waste my time.. think gotta register for a dourse this week also.. if not no time liao le.. also have to sort out my thinking and try to answer myself to the many qns i have and also help my frends in their probs.. hopefully i can do it..

think i will end here ba.. looking forward to the week to come.. ice skating again i think.. lol.. and sure it will be fun.. hahax.. tml going back skl getting money for fac.. hahax.. then working tml.. flying off!!!

为何选择了放手，但在无人的夜里会感到心痛？？？

2007-03-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

haizZz.. rather pissed yesterday.. nowhere to go to but choose to rant here.. so pardon mi from being realli exasperated here.. went back home yesterday wanting to find the $100 plus receipt i kept from the other time to be a vip member for sakae.. but didn't manage to find it.. so went to ask my mum if she had seen my receipt anot..

was rather impatient and a bit impolite i admit.. cauz its $100 plus dollars worx.. had a hard hard time keeping receipts.. budden my mum started yelling at mi and accusing mi that i am blaming her she lost my receipt.. i realli dunno why.. i tried to control myself but i can't.. started losing my temper liao le..

after that had a bad fall in the kitchen cauz the floor was too slippery.. stomach crashed into the basin and had a hard knock on my injured shoulder.. sianzZz.. now my shoulder is realli like breaking apart.. i realli dunno why.. my mum start accusing mi that i was falling on purpose and yelled so loudly almost the whole HDB flat can hear her.. zZz.. then my dad was waken up and started scolding mi..

i realli dunno why.. my parents nv try to understand things and start scolding and shouting.. they can nv tok nicely to mi.. hate that.. they nv get the facts right and they will condemn u like nobody's business.. realli hate this.. i realli wonder when they can ever tok nicely to mi and i would do the same.. haizZz.. hate it..

nonetheless yesterday was a great day for mi.. the unhappy stuffs happened onli at home.. went out with ben, anna and anna's younger brother.. hahax.. went ice skating at je.. lol.. it was my first time ice skating.. very very NOOB.. hahax.. struggled learning how to balance and how to skate.. budden in the end managed to learn how to skate le.. hahax.. from a few hard falls and knocks.. hahax.. very funny de i keep falling.. hahax..

took neoprints after ice skating.. very fun also.. hahax.. weird weird de poses and funny funny de gestures.. lol.. had a great time taking neoprints also.. hahax.. very very interesting.. upload the neoprints we took yesterday.. hahax..

act cute de.. hahax..

sushi!!!!

ghostly~~~~~

hahax.. after ice skating went causeway point for sakae buffet.. hahax.. cauz anna de little brother nv eat buffet before.. very fun de chattin and dining over there.. saw sandberg also.. hahax.. very fun.. ate quite alot yesterday cauz very very hungry.. ben kept entertaining us with his jokes and fun gestures.. enjoyed myself at dnner very much..

it was alwaes fun going out with my colleagues.. hahax.. think i will very much miss the times i spent with them when i quit at the end of this month and preparing myself to go NS liao le.. hopefully will keep in contact with them and come out play after i left.. hahax.. think will end here ba.. gotta work later also.. budden shoulder uber pain dunno how to work also.. think hang on ba.. flying off!!! =)